Dreams. Dead. Hopes. Lost. I am fed up. I cant cope. I admit it. I am a shitty wife. Mother. Friend. Witch. Everything. Wtf am I still alive for? I should die and let hubby find someone else. While he still can. Getting close to saying fuck it all. I cant even fight for my own daughter. So I give that up too. I give up. I just wanna fuckin die. And ( Read more... )

Step daughter playing nice on fb. She is gettin everything she wants so of course she plays nice. She thinks she has everyone fooled. Not me. Even james and dee are fooled. Dave knows what she is but he is just as bad though. I am sick of their shit. Dave who wouldnt give his da a key. Missy who can come and go in the house to clean it and search ( Read more... )

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Right now it is 75 outside. Was in a bad mood but coming outside has helped. A slight breeze and a silver sliver of a moon in an indigo sky, make it...witchy kinda. For a sec i can forget my problems as i watch hubby water our bit of grass. I AM grateful for what we have....gods know i am. Appreciation is finally something i can count on feeling ( Read more... )

Feelin a bit less stressed. Hung out with hubby and friend today. Was nice. Tired. But a good day

So tired but tryin to keep fighting. Tryin to forgive and forget... kinda. My health is suffering from all this crap

Die already and be done with it. My life is pointless. Herbie isnt happy. Our marriage is hanging by a thread. I cant forgive him he cant forgive me. Fed up. People are greedy and cruel. I am not needed or wanted. I will stick around but within a year if things dont get better I dont think I will be here. I barely want to be. I am so so so tired. ( Read more... )

Think my hubby sold me out to his kids. He put them above me. Its is sad. But he is old. He is tired of shit....and he wants their love. He knows he has mine. But he doesnt have theirs. They want what they can get out of him. Its so sad. He deserves better.

So tired of drama and b.s. funny...since I appear to be the queen of drama myself. I just overreacte to things. Lol. My perception isnt always right. Wish I could take my hubby away from all the crap and we could live our lives happily. With no greedy people....or people who misunderstand...who judge ( Read more... )

So nice to have good news. He is so beautiful. I saw pics. Thank u gods.