My friends still post here? Its kinda sad cause this place seems to have been forgotten. Just wanted to say hi. If any are left i wont forget u. Probably wont post here much. Not much to say any more. Kinda giving up on a few things. Sad to admit i should have a few years ago. Life is so different than i thought it would turn out. Rather tired of ( Read more... )

Trying to stay sane. Things started to get better. Why was i born? Everyone thinks i am trying to take what is theirs. I am not. I just want to pay bills without having to skip meals. To be able to afford my meds. To have one year out of my life without having to constantly be afraid. They will get everything. Cant they wait?

Tho i dont feel well...pics of my grandson always bring me joy. Such an amazing little guy he is! My sweet son in law "talked me down" by joking with me during high blood pressure bout last night. And my dee missed my texts when i forgot to text for a couple days. I feel loved...and it feels great. Tired today cause...well...wbinter coming! Blech. ( Read more... )

Well...so much for seeing therapist. On top of all that we are dealing with...car wont start and we have no money to fix it. We...need...that...money...to survive. Herbs two older kids are panting for "their" inheritance while we need it to survive. So much for that i guess. We cant take any more. No savings left. Morgage is going up. Cant afford ( Read more... )

I need to quit facebook and all social media. Maybe i need to forget i have a husband and let him find someone better. Maybe i need to forget i have a daughter and let her get her drama from her saintly sister and not me. Let bee bee have the grama he has and not have to deal with nana. Think i am gonna stop calling my folks. They have enough ( Read more... )

Deja vu, deja vu...when the heck will you be through ( Read more... )

Watch a conspiracy show just before bed. It only fills u with fear and hopelessness. Almost as bad...or maybe more so...than reading the book of revelation....or prophesies of edgar cayce or nostradomas. There is enough fear/miseries/threats of damnation/hatred/intolerance/etc in the world ( Read more... )

Very tired. Hubby has glaucoma in his good eye...but drops should help it. Then I get ckd to see if I have it in my good eye. Or if I can put off cataract surgery still in my one seeing eye. Cant afford to get more disabled. If so then might have b.s. to deal with with someone who wants power and money. Wish wed never met her ( Read more... )

Another "friend" lost. She got mad cause my hubby and I didnt see her on our anniversary. Promised to see her on her lunch hour and didnt. She didnt get any texts I sent? Hmmm. Well my hubby can be friends with her if he wants. I am done. I dont need the abuse by her. She never was my friend...only my husband's. She doesnt care about me at all. ( Read more... )

Gettin down to the wire now. Hope b.s. is almost done. Finally shut down to where I had to get serious help. It rebooted my soul a bit...but didnt really solve anything. My hubby and I need to get a life while we still can. Have slight cognitive problems and hoping it doesnt mean anything worse later. I think of it but cant live with anymore fear ( Read more... )