Why am i writing here instead of my xanga, or my journal or something? i know who reads this and who doesnt, but hmm. sometimes i feel like this is my secret place. or that i subconsciously want the right person to discover it when the time's right. whatever it is, i probably need to write some year-wrap-up thing and i figure ill do it here ( Read more... )

Epiphany #1 ( Read more... )

i feel so alone

Okay. I think i've reached my last straw. i decided that i really need to see a therapist, or at least have a journal, because i think i'm going to explode ( Read more... )

wow. high school is really, really lonely. i never realized how shy i was until last year, and its really getting to me. i was thinking of people to invite to my possible sweet 16, and i also realize how many people i've lost touch with and how ive really failed in making myself more friends in school. but then again a lot of people annoy me. eh ( Read more... )

i hate how lately i've been so irritated with people. is this just a consequence of me changing? maybe i have higher standards for what a "good person" is. it also makes me irritated with myself, because of all the dumb things i did these past few months. but then again i wouldn't be feeling this irritation at all had i not gone through those ( Read more... )

i wish i was more independent.

maybe because its so disappointing when people let me down

and moreso when i let other people down.

i can't wait for senior year..or this summer at least. junior year will suck the big one, def.

oh man. there are so many thoughts going through my head right now, it's almost undescribable. i walk around the halls of school with so many things bouncing around my mind sometimes..and im always wondering whats going on in the lives of those people walking right on by me, what they're going through right then and who theyre thinking of. i wonder ( Read more... )

i just had the deepest conversation that ive had in awhile. and it really makes me think about a lot of things. why is it that you never truly realize what you're missing until it's gone, or what you didn't have until you have it? why do people never really learn lessons unless its from their own experience? it's almost kind of unfair, i think. but ( Read more... )

man. people are ridiculous sometimes. including myself though.
in times like this, i think i just need to let go...
holding grudges and being upset is waste of time that could be spent being happy.

"Cause he followed her just to let her know
Her dreams are dreams
And all this living's so much harder than it seems"