Still Alive

[tammy00]

I purged 3x today.  It's the most I've done in one day in about a month.  I had been doing pretty well in which I was only b/ping 2-3x/week.  I wonder how long will I have to keep this up before I have a heart attack?  I have to go back to the doctor's office in 2 weeks.  Will she or the nurse or my therapist be able to notice that something is

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[tammy00]

I'm so glad that you took time to read this entry. I really wanted to hear your input on my feelings about my faith. By no means do these feelings/doubts,and my anger and disappointment mean that I and doing away with Christianity or that I no longer believe in Jesus. I just feel really lost at the moment. I feel as though I need explanations and answers to help me get through this rough time. I'm so unhappy right now. I feel as though if God is keeping me here and refusing to adhere to my frequent requests of taking me out of this mess so I can go be in peace in Heaven, He should give me a reason why I have to stay in this messed up situation.

Thanks again for your encouragement and support.