I'm just gonna put this behind a cut I suppose, It helps me a lot to talk out my experiences but that doesn't mean that the people who read my journal (both of you) need to read all this stuff

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I'm pretty consistently proud of myself for not starting shit with people anymore, I understand that it's mostly due to apathy, and not so much personal growth, but hey, a win is a win.

So, I've been here now for a while, and the layers of apathy and hardened heart that I had built up over the years are coming away, and it's almost strange to be happy for a change, and to be like, really happy ( Read more... )

Back in those days, he was more ghost than human, haunting friends and relatives, bars and houses, instead of living and breathing, unable to let go of the things that kept him there to move on to whatever was next ( Read more... )

If we can't help ourselves, why don't we help ourselves?
because we all, just need, to feel loved.

Ha, so I made it, I don't know how, but I made it and I'm alive and I start working on Monday. Might go to pride today, ut that involves getting up and doing something which I don't know about. Also I can drive the hour to my hometown for a birthday party for my cousins son, but more driving sounds terrible.

I think everyone I talk to that actually reads this reads my facebook as well, but just in case they don't, this is an addon to my post in facebook, which I will copy below:

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I got the job.

I start Jul 1.

I guess this is happening?

This has just essentially become the "SF Job" blog, because I'm not really ready to talk about it on Facebook yet. I fly out to SF the day before my birthday so that I can interview for the job on my birthday and fly back the next day. I'm told the interview is just a formality, and a chance for me to meet the team, and assuming that's correct, It' ( Read more... )

So, I had meant to update yesterday about how the job in SF wasn't able to open a position so I was still stuck in AZ, but then I got a message again about how someone left and try have approval to immediately fill, so I'm back to waiting on a call and praying I have the money to move