sometimes i think stupid things, say stupid things, and have stupid dreams
but then i realize how stupid and empty those things really are
and it makes me smile,
it makes me happy and thankful and excited to be home soon

so much <3

even though i've never done that before
i think its a commitment i could make...

okay...i was a bit over dramatic in the last post there
but you all are used to that about me by now

such is life
thank god its the weekend

why is it,
that the one person,
i need to be supportive about all of this,
and be there for me,
can not find fucking 10 min of their time to do so

thats just great

i would do anything for that apartment to exist right now

It is almost funny how much happier I thought I was here until I went home ( Read more... )

i always thought i was different and i could do it
but this is the first time i've wondered otherwise

part of me wants to just forget about this and move on,
such a little thing,
esp when i know its not true

but it still sucks,
and thats easier said then done
i dont know if i can forget

and its not thanksgiving yet

my last entry was stupid, dont pay attention to it, dont ask me about it
I was being stupid like i am sometimes
it happens
halloween things started tonight! and i had lots of fun

ps i miss daniel ryan kimball times a million billion
<3

she is the only person who makes me feel inferior
i feel like she is better then me and i know she isnt
but i can't help it

at this point none of it should matter anymore,
but somehow it still makes me feel like shit

he kills me in a very good way
novemeber 9th should come faster