So interestingly enough Krystle recognized me at the bus terminal and chose to talk to me. it'd been so long since I talked to her that I actually enjoyed talking to her and decided to be friends again...I hope I'm not making a bad decision. I mean we used to argue so much in the past and the ugly things that we did to each other... I told her a ( Read more... )

So Jake is a dick.

I knew he was a slut in the first place because, ahem, he told me, and then I received confirmation on that very fact from one of my good friends ( Read more... )

I felt so bad this morning - someone I knew from elementary school recognized me and said something to me but since I had my headphones on I pretended not to hear. But I didn't do it out of cruelty; I did it because I was scared. He didn't know about me in elementary school and I was not about to show it to him now. [you can kind of tell on me.] ( Read more... )

I've been going crazy these past few days. The sexual tension is heightening within myself again and I know this is yet another problem. Now I can believe I'm capable of searching for random sex at home alone when no one is there...but in PUBLIC ( Read more... )

Well maybe it's a good thing that my brother's computer's internet is not working, because otherwise I would not have come here to RCC on a weekend. It is SO nice here. Pretty much deserted, the weather is nice because it's october, with the sun shining through the leaves of all the trees around. Did I mention deserted. lol. But yeah, I wouldn't ( Read more... )

I realize that I have a slight problem, but am not sure how to handle it yet. The body obsession. it's what's driving this isolationist behavior. yesterday I decided to look up a guy whom I thought was pretty cute [lol] and looking at me in one of my classes, but when I found his space he turned out to be freaking perfect. Too high for my standards ( Read more... )

So Matt seems to be reciprocating my behavior - that is - ignoring me too. it's not pleasant to witness but I know I'm doing the right thing. now the next step - I need to stop fantasizing about him in general. I still do and I need to stop it. Usually thinking about him going to that sleazy club this friday with his slutty friends really kills any ( Read more... )

Things have finally calmed down a little here. Local matt has begun to kind of bug me again, but I'm sure that will fade away soon. It was a big mistake apologizing for my wrong-doing [who would have thought we'd regret doing RIGHT! lol] because I want to get rid of him now. My friend drew whom I went to LA with talked about his experiences with ( Read more... )

Lately I've been getting a lot of attention, which feels pretty good. I like it. However, Herman [the annoying one] is so on my nerves at the moment I can hardly stand it. I am at the step before the last straw. Last night I was accused of being conceited and having an attitude towards one of his friends that I'd met earlier. He even put quotes ( Read more... )

alright. I'm going to make today productive. I'm going to eat a little more, finish cleaning my room, finish my photoshop project, and exercise. I'm going to feel good about today ( Read more... )