I can say I like updating this thing a lot better without worrying about anyone flaming me, lol. [that's because no one comments on it ( Read more... )

since I'm so obsessed with my body and refuse to listen to anyone who says "stop" or "shut up" (yes, people say those things) - because you know, that is like trying to cross an asymptote - you just can't. I need to lay out why I think I'm this way ( Read more... )

well, now I revisit the feelings of being used. I may seem obsessive, but I recognize how you're usually supposed to be acting when you like someone. I recognize this same behavior from the people who say they like me in that way. I do not recognize it from the one whom I want to like me back - how many times do we humans do this to ourselves, lol ( Read more... )

I found a number to call about my problem. I will call it and see if I can be checked for stds. *nervousness ( Read more... )

I've took the next step in getting a job on campus. I really hope I get it, the lady at the desk didn't sound too sure of me when she found out I only could tutor in one subject [because they don't do english.] I have also only had one professor, and he gets to assess my knowledge of the subject in this chart on the paper - I bet that is going to ( Read more... )

It goes to show how not exercising for a couple of weeks makes me lose weight. well not weight exactly but that slightly fuller look I was striving for. I constantly look at my forearms and wrists as though if I do it long enough it will make them bigger. sigh... I'm infected with that disease too. the shallow "please god make me look better" ( Read more... )

I'm here before class again and about to do some light reading beforehand. no updates with my one guy, haven't been able to chat with him lately. There's another guy from my school who would like to meet me formally and I'm a little scared to. I haven't been working out lately and am worried about whether I've got what it takes to impress someone ( Read more... )

I still haven't heard back from james, the guy I believe I got the std from. I know it's not his responsibility and it's my fault but dammit I was lied to ( Read more... )

So I know I haven't written in a while; a lot has gone on since the last time I was on ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I start my trig class. I think that it's going to be so much fun; my sister is going to help me find my class early because I don't know the campus very well. Well, I'm going to keep your short attention spans in mind, so I'll make it quick ( Read more... )