snow belly rising
she has traveled
always wrapping her crooked
mouth around an empty day
also known as
the last hurrah

if someone's empty hands
could give your little wild ray
of light a chance to shine
i hear
the one who calls you
back to sleep
would cheer

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meant to make the reader feel optimistic. like the whole world is inside of that one person who is rooting for you. please let me know if it works.

that i should maybe stop neglecting this blog so much. maybe if i start writing in it more often, i'll be able to write again, period.

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+ my left shoulder and neck have been hurting pretty badly since wednesday. i love my job, but it's even worse when i'm standing back in the kitchen or with my head bent down making sandwiches. good thing i'm off ( Read more... )

my cat is making them right now, and it's not even close to meowing. everytime she opens her mouth, it's like a whispery chirping. i don't think she's choking either because she looks pretty cool with this weird noise that is coming out of her mouth.

last night i had a strange dream. i was sleeping in someone's bed ( i have no idea who it belonged ( Read more... )

why am i worried now?
did someone make a fool of me
'fore i could show'em how it's done?

jungle water

calm down
your cupid's bow lips
your shoulders are
moving, tiger-striped
you'll find yourself another
slip into dark jungle water
you're bobbing your head
_________________________

inedible

i was eating juniper berries
strange and bitter
and felt my own shadow
cold and atwitter
break into small pieces
some of which attacked
with no warning
with no ( Read more... )

i’ve had all my dreams in the dark
but none of them were ever
                                                             as real
                                                             as you
morning bells ring
blues
and spotted dogs sing
twos
and none of them
as real as you
___________________

i wrote this around christmas/new years and forgot about ( Read more... )

johari:
http://kevan.org/johari?name=smallish%20woman

nohari;
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=smallish%20woman

let's see what happens.

and you will gain everything.

.. uh, right?

in five days, i will have been alive nineteen years. the prospect doesn’t bore me, i’m not jaded or indifferent to birthdays. in fact, i’m rather excited, but i’m a little afraid to even get excited about it, because things rarely turn out the way we want them to. but nineteen is my favorite number ( along ( Read more... )

was the most draining, frustrating day i’ve had all week ( excluding the fifteen minutes or so i spent at work getting my paycheck and talking to co-workers and the time i spent at a dance lesson. all that was more peace than i’ve had all week, and throughout both, i think i managed to seem like a mostly happy and well-adjsuted person, i hope ), ( Read more... )