I am getting tired. Tired of waking up everyday waiting for death. I am a hermit who hides in his shell finding acceptance and happiness through nothing. I don't understand anyone anymore. I don't understand earth. I cannot find the beauty I once saw in things, everything is clouded and pessimistic to me. The only reason I hang on is for my mother ( Read more... )

its been quite a while since i've posted a public update.. almost said bulletin. anyways im really in a reflective mood right now sort of autistic... its interesting ( Read more... )

I am so excited for...

~sasquatch (beck and blue scholars are going to be there ahhhh)

~going to see my sister and niece in two weeeks

~that i dont have to work weekends anymore

~that i have music now when i go running (my headphones are awesome)

~that the quarter is over and i finished my 13 page paper

i hate those nights where there is nothing to do. GRRR

CHERIE M. Perkins is a bitch for not calling me back. hha

im ready to leave this small world we call the northwest and meet new people.

Tonight at about 4.58 pm, i hit jon isenhour with my car. he was on his skate board on caldart and i had just turned. he thought i was one of his friends and that i saw him. i didnt. i was going about 25 and i smacked into him. he almost penetrated my winshield. he was on the ground and moaning with i got out of the car. a few people rushed over ( Read more... )

the anorexia starts now.

Did everyone but me know that the Chronicals of Narnia was about jesus?

I think its finally time for some closure

I am the world's biggest dumb ass with money. Sold my skateboard to a consignment shop a while ago for 36 bucks... which i paid 180 for. My mom bought me a longboard (which i never ride because its too cold and rainy right now). Also the worst of everything is that my hospital bill is going to be over 1000 dollars and im going to have to tell my ( Read more... )