I was 132.0 this mornin. The lowest I saw today was 131.8 sometime this afternoon. But i blew it and ate. I think i'll be fine though. I've been avoiding shopping so there isn't really anything to eat. Chicken plus shredded lettuce equals dinner. So thats been the plan for now. I really really hate flab. Why can't it shrink as well? Willmy arms ( Read more... )

So i guess the reason i have done so well today is because of my emotions, and i've been reading alot. I actually started to get a little depressed yesterday. It hit mefull blown about an hour ago ( Read more... )

Oh my jeezuz! My ideal weight! Thank u lord!

So yesterday I was 137 most of the day. I hit 136. something before bed again. I knew I'd be retaining water yesterday. So this morning a huge grin spread across my face when i saw this number! It is amazing! This was my first happy weight! I briefly got to 129 one day senior year of highschool. I want to ( Read more... )

Wow haven't seen this number since highschool. Sad huh. Saw it first thing this morning. The last few days have been great. I go all day until 5 or 6 without eating. Usually when I do eat, its very little and if it's high calorie, i purge. I don't think I'll need to do that much longer though. My body is getting used to eating little. I've been ( Read more... )

So Haven't been on here in a while. I'm still binging and purging. I can completely understand why this gets out of hand and control people's lives. It's got a hold of me. It's alot easier to correct myself. Its easier than laxatives, quicker, and I can control when it happens.

Only thing is...now I get sick to my stomach almost every time I eat. It ( Read more... )

So I've been binging and purging like crazy for the last month, even though i said i wouldn't. But i need to. I'm 141. So i gained a few. I'm a fucking cow. But my husband and son are leaving saturday and will be gone until wednesday. So i'm going to be doing a 4-5 day liquid fast. I plan on drinking some veggie juice if my stomach really hurts, or ( Read more... )

 My husband and son should be taking a small trip early next month to new mexico. It should be about 3 days. Those days will be my fasting days. I'm not a good faster, but this is my nearest chance of getting that. I'm excited and looking forward to it ( Read more... )

ugg. So i'm 139 this morning. I've been going back and forth between 137 and 139 the past few days. I see 140 every night when i'm full of water and whatnot so it sucks just to see that 4. I've decided i need to crack down on all this. I had some nasty sweet candy type shit i made early today. It's meant for kids, melted chocolate and p buttter and ( Read more... )

 I have to pee right now. Soooo today was ok. I was 138 this morning. I expected so. Whatever. I'm trying to be good, but its so hard. I'm purging alot. I don't really feel bad about doing it, but bad about the food i eat in the first place that makes me want to do it. It's not getting me anywhere much... I don't know. But i must must must lose! I ( Read more... )

Ok so i was 137.6 today when i wandered into the kitchen naked at 8 am. Ha ha i don't normally sleep all the way nude but its been so hot here. 112-115 all week has been the average. Of course my central air is set at 80 degrees though. lol haha enough of this weather talk. I'm very happy with the scale today. I know i'm not going to binge today. A ( Read more... )