You know I am just really not happy. I can feel myself slipping away and I have no energy to push myself back to normal. Once again swallowing those pills are just too much work and I know that the seasons changing are changing me. So the pills are almost useless ( Read more... )

you know. i really just want to give up... i would love to be that beautiful tiny girl... but i am not. i am me. i have random freckles. i have big hips. i laugh at weird times and i have short hair. i dont know how to dress and i might smell from time to time... but i am me. i dont deny who i am. i am not going to hide myself in sweat pants not ( Read more... )

ben: sunshine, rainbows, lollipops and erin marklein should all be grouped together because they are all things that make me happy

that just made my day today... that and getting my period after it being 3 months and me being afraid that i might be having a baby and i didnt know how the baby would be forming in my belly since nothing happened.

and maybe the world has stopped making sense ( Read more... )

last night i went to andru's birthday party. gabby came with me so that i wouldnt have to walk into the bar alone. she is underage so we didn twant to be there nor get kicked out. so we stood and talked for a bit. then i was introduced to jenny who i instantly recognized as the girl before me. when she learned my name, she gave me the look of death ( Read more... )

i feel like my room in this apartment is my new haven. i like nothing more than laying on my futon and doing something. this room suites me ( Read more... )

i think one of the saddest things about life is that we dont really appreciatethings until they are gone ( Read more... )

do you ever sit back and think about life and all of the things going on and wonder why people get upset about boys not calling or their hair or how they look. because none of that matters. none of that is important. its important that we tell people we care about that we care. its important that we are hones.t its important that we are true to ( Read more... )

I like that you ramble when you're nervous. I like that I know that you ramble when ( Read more... )

i have been sick since monday at 3:30 in the afternoon... its wednesday at 8:30 in the morning... i dont know how many hours exactly that is but it is too much ( Read more... )