i got a response from my letter. it wasnt into the air. it was to someone that within 9 months go to know me in and out. got to understand me ( Read more... )

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i bandage your wounds.
i listen to your stories
i am your lifeline, your support
i carry your bag of pills and jagged glass so you don't use them
i have your cd
i bandage my own self and continue on my way almost every day.

i keep trying to "dedicate myself to the process", at least that is what david my ceramics prof calls it. however, its challenging. i really do love throwing on the wheel, i love the way the wet clay squishes between my fingers and i am able to get messy. i love that when i walk out of the studio my shoes have drip marks from where the water and ( Read more... )

The days of my life are catching up with me. I consumed more smoke from cigs and booze from drinks then from the five major food groups last week. Nothing was wrong but nothing seemed to go right. I find that I spend so much time anticipating how something will go that when it really happens I am disappointed. It is almost as though I am trying to ( Read more... )

The problem in life is this ( Read more... )

i am stumbling around in the dark. i have so much on my mind but i dont know how to talk to people about it. my entire being is changing and i am not sure if i like th change or i dont. i am doing things i would never have expected to do. i am feeling things i would never have guessed i do. and my life is becoming awkward and i am unsure as to what ( Read more... )

i feel its time to update though nothing really comes into head ( Read more... )

you know. i am not ok with their leaving. i am not ok that i am not going with them ( Read more... )

the best part of my day was waking up at home and knowing that i was safe ( Read more... )