All i can keep thinking is i've fucked everything up. Is it too late for love? Will i ever love anyone again? I wish i knew how bad things were. I wish i could take a time machine back and change things. I wish it was two years ago. I think about all the good times and the bad times, and fuck do i miss the good times.

it's not supposed to mean anything, but it does.

fuck me.

I'm self desctructing

i just need to survive three more months.

but how?

I'm trying to give her space but it's so hard. I'm trying to let her live her life, and its driving me insane. I'm smoking so much. I feel like shit, but i think shes happier. I keep having dreams that we're back together, and i wake up dissapointed ( Read more... )

i can't fucking take this shit anymore. i never know whats going on, and when i think we have something good going on, it's not. i'm going fucking insane, and i feel like i'm being treated like shit ( Read more... )

Went to the gym today, but they were closed because there was no power. oh well. I'm on a shitty sleep schedule again, and i can't fix it. i've been really bored lately and i have nothing to do. I don't want to play video games, i want to go out, but i have no one to go out with.

Went to the beach with Ann yesterday. We had a great time (i think haha). Afterwords we cooked some dinner and watched shawshank redemption. Such of a good movie. Definilty top five of all time ( Read more... )

so my life is a mess right now. ann left which is probably the worst thing to ever happen to me, if not top three. i'm getting sued, and i don't really have any friends ( Read more... )

When trying to remove evil from the world, what if the greatest evil you have ever known is yourself?