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Fad Frases
I really like to say stuff. My own words are usually inappropriately expressed and misunderstood, and then everyone hates me, blah di blah di blah. Whatever. This post is about how much I like cutesey phrases that catch on, though it seems like this would be the definition of a catch phrase, I will assure you, it is not ( Read more... ) -
Hills Have Eyes II
Sometimes, I get obsessed ( Read more... ) -
Heart Attack at the Disco
I had a heart attack last night/yesterday morning. I think I've had them before, but this one lasted about an hour. It hurt to sit up and type at the computer. I wanted to go to sleep but I was afraid. I decided I should take bayer or whatever they tell old men to take to prevent them. I kept kicking and shaking my wrists to try to increase ( Read more... ) -
Living in fear
I have anxiety. I have panic attacks. Social, societal anxiety. I am often afraid to leave my house, meet new people, go to work, I am afraid. I do not fear things that people normally fear. I fear things that people normally find normal. It is a result of my past. Trust no one. Never place too much emotion into one thing, you're only setting ( Read more... ) -
cheeryful post post Mindless
I'm really faking being happy most of the time, or at least not thinking about being sad. But then i don't need my journal. I figured i needed to make a post about being ok today. I had a wicked bad day that day, and tom hasn't called since then, meaning that trip is probably not occuring at all, but I can deal with it, as long as i know. I usually ( Read more... ) -
Oh please oh please, break the pieces of my heart again
I HATE EVERYTHING ( Read more... ) -
Sometimes I become anxiously fearful I'm being too real
You are all so ridiculous ( Read more... ) -
uber depressed
my counselor says my happiness shouldn't rely on other people liking me ( Read more... ) -
I'll always be utterly alone.
Lydia said it best ( Read more... ) -
what a day what a day
Smelling the brownies cooking was my only joy today, and they had nuts so I couldn't even enjoy them. Just be elured by the tempting smell, but not allowed to have them ( Read more... )