SO yeah I am thinking that if/when Pike calls that I may ive him this site and tell him to read it...It may be easier to tell him to read this then explain the moany emotions that are running thru my head, There is so much that I have to decide and figure out and I don't wanna sound like a bitch. But then I am thinking that there are alot of posts ( Read more... )

Well the one thing that I never thought would happen happened....The only other person I have told about the baby was pikes sister Pauline...Well she comes online before to tell me how she told pike! I was pissed...not that he does not deserve to know but I feel betrayed...I asked her to keep it to herself untill I was ready to tell everyone and ( Read more... )

Well it is the same in my life but I promised myself that I would move on...I can not live my life waiting for him to call or email or whatever...I am trying to move on and I know that it is gonna take a bit and that at times I am gonna feel like I can not go on but that is when I need to try just a little harder ( Read more... )

Well as far as I can figure out I am about 3 or 4 days late getting my period...What the hell am I gonna do? Yeah I have wanted a new baby but now all of a sudden I am wondering all these things...Like Pike and I are broke up and we have not even spoke...How the hell am I gonna tell him? Email? His sister? Dave? I wanna be the one to tell him if it ( Read more... )

GGGGRRRRR I am so fucking pissed at Chrystal..See we were talking today and I told her point blank that if Pike walked in all I would do right away would give him a big hug and promise him that I will help him get his head straight...My best friend this girl is suppose to be adn she goes and gets mad at me adn tells me if I talk to him or try at ( Read more... )

Yeah so this journal thank god is not on paper cause I would run out...The kids are napping and I thought that logan was feeling better but now all of a sudden he is back on the couch with a fever watching scooby doo...Emalee is napping and Alex is trying to make logan cry...I do not understand why Alex feels that when the kids are sick that he ( Read more... )

Pauline who is pikes sister asked me a question today after I made a list of things that she had to tell pike cause he will forget..She asked me why I am worrying about him when he is not worried about me ( Read more... )

Well I have decided that people can not mind there own fucking business and thought that they were doing a great thing by belittleing pike and posting the shit that has happened in a hate form on his webpage guestbook...So I decided that I am gonna just fucking use this as my PRIVATE diary and see what happens. I will not give this addy out to the ( Read more... )