SO yeah over the last month alot has gone on. I have been put down, talked about, talked down, treated like shit and still tryed to make pike talk to his family. After hearing how I was a useless girlfriend/mom/humon being for the last month things are suppose to all better now that they said they were sorry? Nah I cant get past it, I can not ( Read more... )

I can not belive my fucking luck! For the last 2 years I have been saying that I wanted to get the gel nails and eventually let my own nails grow. That is one of the things that I hate about myself is my "man hands". So 10 days ago I decided to take the $45.00 and get myself pretty nails. Well they LOOKED BEATUIFUL! They were perfect in everyway ( Read more... )

So yeah yesturday was pikes birthday and I we thought he was suppose to be working. SO we planned a surprise party just me and the kids at the house for when he got off work tonight. I just came back from sobeys now I went and got a cake, the kids are painting pictures in the kitchen on paper for there dads party, and it makes me think When it was ( Read more... )

So this is canada day and all I can think is "where have the time gone?" Alex finshed the whole grade primary program and will be entering grade 1 in September. Today is pikes birthday and he is 28, we went up the park for a while to see what was up there for the kids. They played and got a hotdag, played some games and won some prizes. Everyone ( Read more... )

Well I am having a bad day and it all started with a fucking song. See this song came on just as I was lookiung thru pics and found all these pics of grandma and the kids and just as I relized that I will never have a pic of her with brett, she never got to hold him or kiss him or see him grow but then it came to me, She sees him everyday, I have ( Read more... )

Fuck I feel like a fool...I few days ago I was having a bad day and brett had screamed from 4:30 am and I needed help. So I called begging Pikes mom to wake him and was told that it was my prob to deal with it? Well I continued to tell her that the last time I checked pike was the daddy but it made no difference she refused to wake her baby up to ( Read more... )

Still have so much to say but cant find the words to acually say what needs to be said? Makes no sense I tell you...Corrine and Steve are engaged which makes me happy, altho I hear her and Judy spoke today which I am sure was a interesting time for all invloved. Kids are surprisinglee being well behaved makes me woinder what is gonna happen? Hummm ( Read more... )

So tonight is the graduation dance adn where am I? I am sitting in the hotel lobby in front of the puter..Why you might ask well it is a long story but the whole thing goes around the point of the way that certain people treat me. If you hate me that bad or our embarresed by me just say so and forget I excist..I can not take the stress of trying to ( Read more... )

I can not believe my life...this is nuts...seems like when one thing starts to work the ass falls out of something esle...I either fight with pike or someone all the time...I hate the world...I think that ashley was right when she said that the world is deff fucked up ( Read more... )

I know this journal has been kinda overlooked in the last bit I have sat in front of this page a million times in the last little bit but there is so much I can say but yet nothing that I wanna share with the world? Wierd I think that I am sooo fulll of shit to say but still dont wanna say it. I dont know I feel anti-social. I dont wanna talk to ( Read more... )