I hate how fucking bad it hurts.

I want to get more into yoga. I want to be more clear and concise in the decisions that I make. I want to be smarter, more cultured, more eloquent, more versed in the ways of things. I want to have time, to do the things each day that I want to do. I want to enjoy it ( Read more... )

It seems that my life is a series of spirals. Some going up and some going down. Sometimes I feel like I am going up on one and down on another all in the same day. I have recently been contemplating my life and other such things. Getting back into the dating scene after what feels like a wasted 6 years of my life. Perhaps I am a little bitter. I ( Read more... )

I have just realized that the past like 4 posts on here all say just about the same thing. How fucking sad is that. I think maybe I need to get out more. go to a hooker bar or something. who wants to come?

It has been far to long.

I would update my avid LJ readers but I'm almost sure there aren't any. And if you do know me then you are probably already up to speed.

I am not homeless. I am going to school. and I have a job. WOOT

other than that nothing super awesome has happened that I can think of.

I seriously though that they had deleted my account due to inactivity for I don't know ... for 4 years hahhaa. crazy.

Thanks to mike for reminding me that it was still here!

I bought a house. I have a dog. and 3 cats. ummmm
workin. paying the bills.

that's about it.

god im fucking boring.

and it sucks.
I wish I had a friend to talk to right now.
Madison. you are so far away. and no one else really cares I dont think.
its late at night.
im all emotional and womanly.
shit
sometimes my bf sucks and forgets I exist.

what the hell am I doing.
I have no fuckin idea

le sigh ...

I am depressed.
where is my madison when I need her.
I want to bury my face in your boobs and scream.

sonovabitch.

someone cheer me up.

soo not that anyone would want to hear this but I must tell. First off its about sex. so if you dont want to hear about it dont read any further ( Read more... )

so on saturday chad and I went to oreganos with Edgar. and chad as always gets the wings of FIRE!!!!! I swear its like crack for him.. he starts eating and sweating and his face and lips turn really red. and his eyes are all teared up. he got all jittery. and keeps making small whining noises ..... it was very odd because I was also drinking and ( Read more... )