Wow... I haven't even touched this journal in like forever. Life's been pretty good for once. I'm in school now, and I'm getting A's and B's. I'm working out more and making sure that I'm in shape for the future. I also smile all of the time now because I don't have that much stress anymore. I don't know what's been happening with my father and his ( Read more... )

I remember a time when everything wasn't a big deal... Or so we thought. I remember a time when life was all video games and movies, but that ended quickly. I remember a time when friends was a person that you met and thought was cool... Yet that concept has changed too. Life changes and yet we all still remember a time when it was all no big deal ( Read more... )

I've noticed that the image that so many people have for life is quite messed up. People complain about things that they do nothing about. I complain about my weight and do nothing. People get mad at others about doing something that is unhealthy and yet they do something equally as unhealthy. I guess that's how everybody is though. I'm going to ( Read more... )

I finally got to talk to my sister maria for the first time in 14 years and it's amazing. She has a facebook! She looks so much like my mother and is just as tall as Jillian. She is a Methodist Christian and loves scary movies just like her little brother. Her son Chance plays the guitar and I'm psyched about that! Something like this made me ( Read more... )

I finally found happiness in NC and this time I'm aiming to keep it. I want Carolyn to be happy but can't it be here? I feel like FL was a waste of my time and I really never want to go back. The world has stopped for the first time... I feel so Free.

Don't you hate it when you're young and you have raging hormones that make you lose control and go into some weird animal like instinct. Well, it's been happening a lot lately. My testoserone has been going all out like steroids but less dangerous. But the one that I dont like is the sexual aspect of my hormones. Nowadays Im always turned on, ( Read more... )

I've lost my pride... I'm losing my mind because of it.... My heart is really hurting... where's carolyn when you need her the most? Where's Leigh when you need her the most? Those two I rely on the most to be there and they're not.... I'm losing it... If I get back to boot camp I aim to ruin everyone.... Nothing will stop me.... I aim to be an RDC ( Read more... )

Here I am just resting with a day off from work. Then I will have to work 6 days in a row then I get rest again on Monday... Life is just getting more and more boring. I've just been working out everyday for about an hour and all. Now I have to do laundry and I really don't want to but I really need to. I really want to move back to FL and be with ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm doing nothing with my life. All I do is sit around and wait for something to happen. Well this year I made a commitment. First, my relationship with God will be better than ever, I will give my best with this relationship. Second, I'm going to work out, my goal is to be under 10% body fat by the end of next year (even though it ( Read more... )

Have you ever celebrated a holiday alone? I have... it doesn't feel so good.