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[tastyradish]

I call home once a week. I don't have a long distance phone plan so I only call from my laptop. It's for my dad's sake mostly; he said he likes it when I call. I end up feeling depressed after every phone call though. When I talk to my mother I always end up hurting her feelings. This morning when I called the last thing I remembered thinking was

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[mmmrorschach]

I'm the opposite. Whenever I go out in public by myself, I feel even more alone than at home. Being surrounded by so many people, but being unable to communicate with them because I don't know them and they don't know me, so we don't speak or even acknowledge each other. So I just end up feeling like a ghost who is not even part of the world because I cannot think of a way to break out of this trap of invisibility. It is jarring the few times I hear someone Hey-ing at me, to ask for the time, usually. My watch catches more attention than I do.

My family doesn't say "I love you" much either. The only person who says it is my mother. It's one of the only English phrases she uses. I pretty much just hug people goodbye and kiss my mom on the top of her head.

[tastyradish]

I can understand that feeling. I'm not exactly sure why I find comfort in it really.