I'm angry for a stupid reason and I don't dare act out. It makes me want to cry and shout and stamp my foot. But I won't. I just want to go home, take a nap, finish my homework, get a job, and have enough money. God doesn't want me to plan events.

And so does death. Today has been one of those days (for me) when one realizes that life is a lot of things, if not fair, at least very surprising. Kevin and I had a relationship building discussion about our financial methods after haveing a potentially disastrous conversation this morning about his work. Then, about 1 hour later, my dad called to ( Read more... )

I'm typing this particular entry from my BRAND - NEW LAPTOP!!! I know that this is the most exciting news that you've ever heard and I'm glad that you have obliged to celebrate with me. It's kind of a booby prize though, because my mom had to pay for it due to my extreme lack of cash. I feel like a kid. Wasn't I supposed to learn how to deal with ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning feeling spectacular and then I quickly lost it. I've felt like this off and on lately, but I feel like my spark is gone. There is a certain something that every woman contains that makes her powerful and mysterious and whole and I feel like I've lost mine. Or like it's being smothered. Every day I walk around feeling not like ( Read more... )

I weep for the youth of America. They know not what they do. Well, to be less dramatic about it, they know just as little as we all did at that age and they're making the same silly mistakes. There are a large number of middle school aged children who live in the community where I work and I wish I could just grab them all by the shoulders and ( Read more... )

Down in my heart. I'm at work right now and it's actually going pretty well. I leased an apartment this morning, both of the people who were supposed to move in did with little incident and no one has called on the phone in a really long time. But Most Importantly... I love my friends. Especially my LJ friends. You kids are so amazing and good and ( Read more... )

I wish I was Amy Herring. Her life always sounds super fun. I'm all in a funky blue mood that sucks. I'm not talking to Kevin because he told me that I would have to get a job during school. I don't like to admit it, but that's what it really boils down to. Apparently, we don't have enough money to live. Our rent went up $200, I have to buy a $1300 ( Read more... )

I am so over this fucking leasing associate job. Seriously, I want to walk into my manager's office right now, tell her that I'm never coming back and wish her luck with finding someone to replace me. But, of course, I have been trained by everyone ever to be polite and leave correctly. So, I'm giving my two weeks on Wednesday. No ifs, ands, or ( Read more... )

Work, on another slow day. The rain is coming and there is an hour and a half to go. My best friend came to town and never called me back. What's that all about? Shananigans, I'm sure... Things are good, though. Falling into place? The only issue is the apparel. Being an adult is expensive. They make you buy all of these fancy clothes just to wear ( Read more... )

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