Its so hard working this morning.

Everytime the phone rings i have to force myself to be chirpy and happy.

"Good morning, Octopus Staffing And Recruitment - This is Kate!"

Happy. Happy. Happy. Chirpy. Bubbly. Alive and so happy to be sitting here at 8am on a Monday morning.

When what i really want to do is go home, sit in my room with Tori Amos on ( Read more... )

Yesterday Brendan and i got into a huge fight.

Like, we get into fights constantly, but this particular one broke me down, ripped me to shreads, and then he jumped and danced on my mangled corpse. That is what it felt like.

It started normally - i got home from Shevonne's and made myself a coffee and Brendan a cup of tea and took it down to him. He ( Read more... )

I cant believe that its almost been a year since i met you.

And every single day since then, for 365 days, i have thought of you. I have dreamed of you. I have breathed and lived and yearned and shattered and cried for you. And for 92 days out of that whole 365, i had you. I had you visiting me at 4am just for a cuddle ((i dont care that you were ( Read more... )

Last night i went to Southland.

Got into an argument with Brendan on the way about the fact that i want a new car and he doesnt think i should get one. I promptly told him to get f*cked and that its my life, and if i want a new car i will f*cking well be getting one. I scrimped and saved for my $2500 deposit, so im not wasting it on some sh*t box ( Read more... )

I feel stressed and sick today, i have so much fucking stuff to do that its ridiculous. Last night i didnt get to sleep until about 11:30pm ((i have to get up at 6:30am - hence the reason why i think anywhere past 10pm is late on a worknight lol)) cos i was just thinking about all the things i have to do by this weekend.

- i have to send away my ( Read more... )

i feel shit today.

Dont know why. i feel sick and fat and disgusting and gross and ugly. Might have something to do with the weekend. Shevonne and i went out and got plastered. I got so bad that she had to take me home (god bless her. otherwise i would have been stuck in prahran) and i spewed 3 times out of the taxi. Fun Fun Fun. I was so sick on ( Read more... )

I GOT THE JOB IN ST KILDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*screams*

now all i have to do is resign from here. Im nervous. Wish me luck.

Last night i went to see Krystal (the psychic) again. She was pretty helpful. I was feeling quite lost but i went to see her and she clarified a few things.

- im not going to be with Brendan forever. However, i will be with him for a few months yet as its going to take 2 - 6 months for me to break up with him because my confidence has been shot. I ( Read more... )

i saw the ghost last night.

it was so...scary...that i couldnt even function. i didnt even scream cos i had no voice. i just ran into the kitchen and started crying and shaking and i called everyone i knew but all their phones were either off or engaged or they werent picking up. In the end i finally got hold of shevonne and asked her to come ( Read more... )

I remember when i was single and i went to a club call The Spy Lounge on Kings Street (?) in the CBD. I was dancing on a podium with some guys and there was one with a green shirt, spiky brown hair, and dark eyes. I started dancing up against him and then turned around and said to Shevonne (rather loudly most likely) 
"Im gonna pick up that guy!"

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