god dont u just hate when u wake up....even after downing three bottles of crap..and fuckin put ur ass to sleep pills.why wont i fucking die........my aunt found me in the tub....passed out..saw what i had done..put clothes on me and put me in my bed......i wish i had died.i cant physically hurt myself cause thats too hard...pills and overdosing ( Read more... )

today is the day.......... its 3:47 pm and im finished...god i sound crazy......i just decided theres no more to live for and i just want to die.ill be happy this way...plz dont cry. i love u guys.

IM sicker than shit! i look like shit.........ive gained some weight.....im miserable and all i want to do is be saved by rachel today.god damn..sometimes rachel and hannah just know how to get my mind off myself....well they make me think and actually use my brain.i appreciate that rachel...since you probably are going to read this.i dont really ( Read more... )

hey world...things have been really weird.life is unfolding some new shit...i really dont know whats next...will be a suprise im sure.in the last month or so anny and jax bacame my friends again... i dont exactly know how it happened though.its become an every dayer. its been cool though...its nice to know that anny is doing good...that all is good ( Read more... )

hey world ( Read more... )

Breathe it in and breathe it out ( Read more... )

hmmmm lets see here ( Read more... )

o canada i cant wait to see you ( Read more... )

i have in interveiw today...finally.i dont even care about where the job is either because i just need some cash in my pocket.lol....life really sucks right now....i refreshed my soul by going to the city for a week.trust me i needed it.but as soon as i got off the train back into this nothing town i felt this wave of depression just swoop me off ( Read more... )

BLACK VIOLET RAYS FROM VENUS
I LET IT IN MY HEART
BLACK VIOLET RAYS FROM VENUS
IT CAME IN WITH GRACE

I MOVED THE STARS WITH MY HANDS
AS MY BODY WAS BENT
AS MY SMILE GREW BIG

I DOVE RIGHT IN
TO THE TURQUOIS END
WHERE MY THOUGHTS BEGAN