[ visual ] [ salvatore house ] i feel numb i'm alive and i know i'm getting closer

[allthefunever]

...Well. That's it, then. Damon stares at his tablet for a long moment before laughing roughly-- this is what amusement sounds like, he's not at all bleakly pissed, move along-- and tosses his tablet away. He needs a drink. Maybe seven or so of them

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[ location ] /has no time to think of a good lyric subject line :(

[adeadringer]

Elena is in the kitchen when she hears the glass shatter, and she immediately abandons the coffee she was making to run to room where the sound came from. She's not surprised to see that the source is Damon, and she's not sure what's wrong or what to say, but things are different, now. She remembers him saving her life, remembers him going in with her and coming up with a plan to help save Stefan.

It doesn't feel right leaving him alone, even if it's probably the smarter idea. So instead of going back into the kitchen, she stands in the opening of the room and calls out.

"Damon?"

how'd you get so desperate how'd you stay alive

[allthefunever]

"I'm fine, Elena." He stares at the mess of glass for a moment, before his lips tilt into something that pretends to be his usual smirk but really, really isn't. "I slipped." Oh, the irony.

how'd you get so desperate how'd you stay alive

[adeadringer]

That smirk is enough to send chills curling up Elena's spine for a moment, but she squares her shoulders and dares to come closer, close enough to get a good look at the mess on the floor before she looks back at him.

"People who are fine usually don't throw glass against the wall," she says, her voice not betraying her worry and fear. "What happened?"

how'd you get so desperate how'd you stay alive

[allthefunever]

That smirk never means anything good, it's true. Contrary to popular belief, Damon's issue was never not caring enough; it was caring too much, and being unable to handle the loss that comes with being open. Easier just to flip that switch, to not give a damn about anyone. (Which is another lie, he never let go of Katherine or Stefan; been when is it not another lie with Damon? Even when he's telling the absolute truth, there's a lie in there somewhere. And vice versa, when he's being one hundred percent truthful. Dude's got issues.)

"I told you, I slipped." He... doesn't actually mean the glass, for the record.

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[aregulargirl]

[ there's a scene that looks familiar. max doesn't know if she's overstepping her boundaries or not - he looks angry enough that it'd probably be a better idea to leave him alone. but she likes him enough that just ignoring the broadcast feels wrong. ]

Who got sent back?

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[allthefunever]

[ fffffffffffffffffffff. this is why attachments are stupid. they make you act like this. ]

Nobody important.

[ jesus, damon, telegraph more. this is why you are the charlie brown to katherine's lucy holding the football. ]

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[aregulargirl]

[ she doesn't believe him, but won't push. she hates when people do it to her. ]

Sorry to hear about it, anyway.

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[allthefunever]

Don't be. It doesn't matter.

[ because this is what happens when you like someone. not when you use them, or fuck them-- fuck with them, whatever-- or when you just spend time with them to assuage the boredom of living for a couple centuries. the second you allow yourself to feel anything but vague amusement and contempt, this happens. they leave, and you're the only one to blame for all acts of glass throwing because you're the idiot who let them in. ]

How's your bike?

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[verylittlesugar]

That's not very mature.

[coming from a small teenager in her father's clothes, this may not be the most successful of admonitions]

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[allthefunever]

That means a lot, coming from a ten year old.

[ yes. this will go well. ]

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[verylittlesugar]

I am sixteen, not ten, though I am sure you know this and are only attempting to be insulting.

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[allthefunever]

Perceptive little thing, aren't you?

[ so basically, mattie, a lot of the time damon acts like the sixteen year old you are. enjoy that. ]

never see it coming, it just hits you by surprise;

[allthefunever]

I know the pseudo-Edward lurking drives all the girls wild, but personally I find it annoying. Spit whatever it is out or leave, Stefan.

[ full name and damon trying for his sardonic best and missing by enough that the people who know him well will see right through it. right, everything's fine here. ]

never see it coming, it just hits you by surprise;

[allthefunever]

I'm not the one hovering. I was here first, I don't have to leave.

[ up next on his witty insult list: 'i know you are but what am i?' ]

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[rose_tainted]

[This a familiar sight. Well, the drinking part, anyway. She remembers having drinks by the fire with him and Rose has to pause for a long while before she switches on the device.]

Bad day?

[She settles for the most obvious question, nothing sentimental. He doesn't know her and while it still hurts, Rose knows that she can't bring her feelings into it.]

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[allthefunever]

Oh no. I'm super, thanks for asking.

[ right, because that would convince anyone. well done, damon. your secret is safe. ]

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[rose_tainted]

Sarcasm doesn't always work.

[she wonders just what prompted him to throw a glass against the wall.]

I was just expressing concern. Even if it might not mean much to you.

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[allthefunever]

And who said I was being sarcastic? Maybe I just feel that cheery today. Maybe I feel downright peppy.

[ ...yeah. right. ]

And maybe the last thing I need in the world right now is more of this... feelings crap, did you ever consider that? Maybe I don't want concern.

[ cold comfort at least, but this is about a quarter of the freakout he'll one day have over losing rose herself. ]