Wow. I never should have started this. If i had problems, i should have just spoken up. I never should have made my every thought viewable to the public. I should write stuff down and review it before i post. I was the wrongdoer the whole time.

I must have done something. This doesn't just pop up like that. One day, all smiles and what not. And the next, awkward moments and a declaration of needing to talk about "Things." Now I'm avoided and still have no idea what i did or should expect or what anybody is even thinking. But it's not important. Because i just roll with the tide right? if ( Read more... )

And apparently she didn't forget our anniversary but didn't think it was a big deal. Which, i can see her thinking on. I have been gone every single one of them for reasons out of my control. but whatevs. In the past now.

rumors suck. They really do. I was sure that we were all over that, being that many of us are technically becoming adults. Or supposed to be at least. But, Rachael called me last night (breaking the "streak") saying she had just had a huge conversation with people about how everybody thought i was suicidally depressed (Which is only partly true, ( Read more... )

P.S.

She Didn't know it was our anniversary today until i reminded her. no big deal, but just adding on.

Damn the Inca people. I don't know why yet ( Read more... )

Children's show is over and with it goes that feeling of stress and such. So, that's good ( Read more... )

As i fill up my hot tub, i find myself reflecting on the day. I was so excited for it. A whole day off of school except for band. And what's more, a whole day with my girlfriend out of school. I see her in the morning, and she's tired, normal. Still tired after first period, normal. Quiet as a mouse whenever she was around me, strange. She and i ( Read more... )

Uh, Wow. Really hard for me to watch. And not because of some of the singing or my old best friend from elementary school kissing my girlfriend and her having the same expression on her face while looking at him as she does with me after kissing ( Read more... )

I bought a framed Marlon Brando poster today ( Read more... )