So last night was one of the better nights I’ve had lately. Friends and I went and painted lyrics on Brittany’s wall as we acted like we were on drugs. It was quite fun. I love those girls with my whole entire fifteen years of life.

Wish I could say the same for today. Sitting at home alone makes me think a whole lot about my life right now. I ( Read more... )

The only problem I really have is school, but lets just not go into that right now. I’m fucking lonely is what it is. At the moment I just feel miserable. I’m so good at hiding that though. Sweetest day didn’t turn out so bad thanks to my friends. I swear they save my life. But that didn’t stop me from thinking of how pathetic I am and how bad I ( Read more... )

I’m pretty sure if a guy ever plays Caterpillars by The Spill Canvas for me on acoustic I will be in love forever.

But anyways…

I decided I now hate my livejournal; I used to be good at this. I used to be good at thinking and putting those thoughts into words. What the hell has happened to me? I wish I knew. I miss writing. That’s the one thing ( Read more... )

I feel so disgusted with myself at the moment. Everything seemed as if it were fine. I thought I was going to be happy again. I guess not. I’ve gained so much weight since I started school five weeks ago. It makes me sick thinking about it. I mean five weeks? I suck. I also just cut my hair again and really really fucked it up. So obviously I feel ( Read more... )

Homecoming is tonight.

I'm not going.

I wonder what I'll do instead...?

I bet I'll end up sitting here on myspace all night seeing as thats the only thing I'm good for.

Maybe I'll be so sad and depressed with boredom that I'll update again later.

I'm a loser.

The End.

okay well I guess livejournal.com isn't working properly seeing as I can't edit my text ( Read more... )

Fusion is today ( Read more... )

I wish you would read this, because when I fell for you, I fell pretty hard.

I never thought it would be that hard to fall for one of your best friends. Which he is one of mine. I've never had to deal with this kind of situation before. It's complicated. I'm not sure how I should feel. Liking him right now just seems completely wrong.

Anyway ( Read more... )

Well today was good.

I suppose I'm happy at the moment.

Maybe because I got to see him? Maybe because he actually acknowledged me? Maybe because I know that he's what makes me smile?

I know I still cant have him. Trust me. I saw him practically making out with some other girl tonight. That wasn't too pleasant for me to see, but then again I ( Read more... )

Nothing is guaranteed when it comes to so-called life.

You have more than you can ask for, you have the greatest friends in the world, you feel like life may actually start to head in the right direction for you.

Too good to be true?

What happens when everything good in your life suddenly falls away from you? What if you don't have anything ( Read more... )