There’s so much I want to say, but nobody listens and I can never communicate well enough. I could write a book with all I want to say... I at least wanted to keep my thoughts here in this journal... but lately I feel as if, there’s just no point. I don’t need to write them down for me, I wanted to leave them here for someone to discover one day ( Read more... )

Hello log, I’m not gone yet. Perhaps when more time passes, as they say. Just thought I’d say hello. My dear sweet precious journal, the one interesting thing I have. The recordings of my life and window into a whole world that isn’t tangible. Have you ever thought about how.. big.. worlds are? Forever... there is no ending. In such little ( Read more... )

I really want to kill myself. I always told myself if it came down to the day where I knew I was going to let go, that I would run away first. Not like "run away from home" I'm an adult. More like.. run away to something.. what it is I don't know. To anywhere, any place. Just.. to try. I don't have a dime. I don't have any friends or ( Read more... )

Well I'm writing an entry. Not too sure why, but I think it’s to update the final version of myself. I think this might by my last entry, well.. you never know. But I don’t think I’ll really have much to say anymore. I’ve complete shut out and shut down from.. life. I don’t know what to call myself.. because I can’t call my own self insane, ( Read more... )

I can’t find the words to start. I’m still in shock but I have to accept this. I’m so sorry if anyone reading this knew her and I couldn’t contact you to tell you personally. My best friend Heather has died. I simply can’t write well enough to tell you who Heather was. So far in my life she was the only person who I knew without a doubt was “ ( Read more... )

I finally give up. I can’t find anything worth holding on to anymore. I’ll never be good enough. I won’t. I gave everything I had... I’ve tried to give the people I care about everything. But I’m not good enough. No matter what anyone says, how are you supposed to live with that fact? If it makes me selfish fine, but I can’t stand living ( Read more... )

Tea Okay: I'd loove your lipbalm ( Read more... )

I don't know what to post anymore. :( My life is boring.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haulteaokay goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a pumpkin.charliekeenjr gives you 1 white licorice-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.eggshell gives you 10 red-orange strawberry-flavoured gummy fruits.heathersmind tricks you! You get a block of wood.kandikorn ( Read more... )

My new icon is what it would look like if I blew my brains out. Isn’t it wonderful?

It snowed today, enough to cover the ground a good inch, then it melted.

Here are ( 7 lucky pictures of Tea Okay ... according to Yahoo's image search. )

lol life
What's the point?