I think as part of my new initiative in 2010 to not be so secretive and sad, I am going to close this outlet. I will express my down feelings in other ways, and try to handle my life more positively and healthily overall.

This journal has gotten me through a lot, actually, but some things have to find their close.

Just after a couple nights where I went through ways of taking myself out, permanently exiting ( Read more... )

i tell you what - there is plenty wrong with me ( Read more... )

From a begging man ( Read more... )

I don't really feel like I just fought a dragon ( Read more... )

moratorium on blair terrorizing ( Read more... )

so i'm letting less and less things get to me
or rather, trying to just differentiate between the crap and the important stuff

the stuff epics are made of

and now i'm off to see SAMMMMM if she'll have me

eh. i'm feelin better.
bring on the world.

i can take it

ouch

this day will be long

but

i am so proud of cabaret
(the lights and and the set and the costumes)

even if some people think its shit
i like it
it fits

and and and
today is just looking up from the rest of the week