Things have really been hitting me hard lately - not sure why. It could be that I have had a lot more 'quiet' time due to my lack of energy lately. All I seem to want to do is sleep or my more recent favorite - laying in a coma on the couch..watching tv; my eyes focused but my mind spinning wildly, completely out of my control. Sometimes I feel as ( Read more... )

We got a call from my cousin yesterday..ICU called her to tell her that her brothers kidneys are failing..they aren't sure if his heart attack caused it, or the diabetes. I went to go see him yesterday - I just stood there, by his bed, looking at him..he looked so much like my aunt..I can't get the sound of the respirator out of my head..such a ( Read more... )

I got a phone call last night - my cousin had a heart attack. He is in ICU - he has been in and out of consciousness; they have 2 tubes going into his lungs to drain them because he is retaining water - he got pnuemonia somehow ( Read more... )

I wish I could skip this next class..
I am so tired.
I was starting to fall asleep in my last class..
I can't wait to get back here to the apartment..and take a nap..hopefully - it will be quiet..

She is making my life unbearable..and the problem is, now, after talking to her last night, I feel this need to apologize to her - but I won't do it. I can't. If I apologize it is just making her bad behavior okay - I am not even sure if she is going to respect what I asked of her..it is hard for someone to respect someone else, when they don't ( Read more... )

Sometimes when I pray, it feels like God is all around me - so close, that when I'm done, I almost hate to say AMEN. Saying amen, in a way, that's almost like ending a call..like hanging up, you know? It feels like God just evaporates out of the room. So that made me think..wouldn't it be great if we could leave a prayer off the hook? Just leave it ( Read more... )

While walking home from my 8am class yesterday I was so deep in thought. Normally, I am aware of everything around me; cars, people, animals...But for some reason I was really concentrating (if you were to ask me what I was so deep in tought about, I honestly wouldn't be able to tell you because I can't even remember). Anyway, like I was saying, I ( Read more... )