so, its been like a year since i've wrote anything and since i've talked to a lot of people that i miss. I have changed so much i have lived and loved and i know thats hard to believe coming from me i have never loved anyone more than a friend but like i said i have changed. me and my parents are getting along awesomely. i sing in a band called ( Read more... )

so yea tonight wasnt to bad i have been hanging out with old friends crazy but cool i geuss. so i haven't updated in a while, my memory is gone, plese forgive me. so about my life as of this very moment boring. about my life as of last week pretty shitty. about my life as of last year at this time GREAT. see the change i sure as hell do. i hate ( Read more... )

i hate life. i hate death. I HATE THE WORLD. i hate small towns. i hate big cities. i hate voices. i hate silence. i hate people. I HATE THE WORLD. i hate words. i hate the ability to speak. i hate not speaking. i hate the ability to hear. i hate not hearing. I HATE THE WORLD. i hate soft lips. i hate great kissers. i hate bad kissers. i hate ( Read more... )

what is love? i think it is just another expression like smiling or laughing. that could be because i have never experienced love. i have never had anyone who loved me, not even my own parents. they hate me, it's bad when they tell you that isn't it? well honestly i don't care what they think of me or what they say to me it is always about how ( Read more... )

i hate it when something goes good in my life because then something ten times worse goes wrong. i would just rather not have anything good at all than suffer the repercussions of the small good thing. am i leaving you guys speechless or do you just not want to comment on my entries? either one is fine with me. i am not as insane as i may seem ( Read more... )

why are there emotions? what do they do for people? other than the obvious which is get them hurt when someone least expects it. today wasn't to bad but as usual i like to complain about myself and my crappy life. anyway back to emotions and there meanings. wait are there meanings to emotions? if you know the answers to these questions please ( Read more... )

today was a pretty good day. it was kind of weird because nothing good ever happens to me for some crazy unexplainable reason, but it just doesn't. well i wont really go into details of why it was good, it was mostly because of the events that took place last night which i wont mention those either. well if you are wondering about the last entry ( Read more... )

well today was weird. i don't understand why people expect me to make them happy. I really don't understand why people expect me to be or why they think i am happy. happy people don't sit in dark rooms playing with lighters seeing how hot you can get it to place the metal on the back of your skin to see how bad it hurts. then actually enjoy the ( Read more... )