Boredom... so i thought i would update haha havent done that in a while. If there is one thing i miss about having a boyfriend it would be always having something to do (get your mind out of the gutter... not that way) i always had someone to hang out with all the time haha. i mean i sitll have my friends dont get me wrong, but you know what i mean ( Read more... )

Im not looking for love... im looking for someone who can look through my imperfections and still care for me even tho i make mistakes. Im looking for someone who will hold me when things arent going right, who i can be with and not ever get tired of them. I want someone who shares my deepest secrets, that i can see honesty when i look in his eyes ( Read more... )

Wow, sorry i havent written in a while. lol. been kinda busy... i guess. Things have been getting better, im trying not to dwell in the past anymore,  its hard to let go tho cuz those were the things that i used to find comfort in. Now i can move on... find a different comfort, find a different guy :-D Maybe even be single for a while (haha lets ( Read more... )

Just when I thought things couldnt get worse...

And i was finally getting over the last disapointment something new happens. When will it end? will it ever end? i cant take much more of this, i'm gunna break eventually. I can only be "okay" for so long. Whats gunna happen tomorrow? no one can truely know... the uncertainty scares me.

I dont know ( Read more... )

Its as if it is all a dream... its not real, and i am going to wake up soon...

I get up every morning and watch myself go through the same thing. The routine of my life... the same things over again. I try and tell myself that today is going to be different, that something is going to change, but i dont listen. I watch myself get in the car and go ( Read more... )

So much to say... i dont even know where to begin, let alone put it into words that anyone would understand. How do you put into words the best and worst week of your life? hmmm well let me try. This week (being last monday till today) i found out who my true friends are... i found out who really cares for me and who and been lying all along. I ( Read more... )

MY GOD get out of my head... just LEAVE ME ALONE. your memories are like a shadow that follows me every where i go. Everything reminds me of you... i cant turn on the radio, or the tv without some reminder of you. How could you have done this to me?! what did i do to deserve it. i was only ever good to you, i took care of you, gave you my trust, my ( Read more... )

So this is where it begins and where it ends...

have you ever felt like you were going in one big circle. a never ending circle that had you trapped in it. eventually you start getting dizzy but there isnt much you can do to get out of it because there is no end, no point, no corner... your just stuck. You find yourself falling into the same ( Read more... )

Reality is mearly and illusion.

just when you think things are perfect... they shatter like a rock through a glass window. You try and pick up the pieces and put them back together, but it is never quite the same with all the cracks and the tiny pieces missing. But there is always hope... i guess. not to be on the dark side of things, but it is ( Read more... )

i dont know why i believed you. I gave you my trust, and trusted you with my feelings. You told me how much you loved me and promised me the world... and i actually believed it. Im sick of all your lies! did you ever tell me the truth? everything that you told me sounded so comforting, it gave me security. When i was with you nothing else mattered ( Read more... )