I think ive given up. Life... its so hard. Im not a weak person, im not a wuss, i just cant take it anymore. Too much pain, if anything else happens to any of my friends or to me...i think im going to explode. None of then deserve it (especially you... you know who you are, i cant believe your parents would do that to you, its so ridculous, its not ( Read more... )

Lastnight i had a dream...

i dreamt that my friends were dying... all of them. I was sitting there watching heplessly as each one fell dying is different ways. I was crying and screaming, i was running from what was killing them, but it kept following me. I couldnt seem to get away. I was afraid. After it killed the last victim, i woke up cold but ( Read more... )

To all of my friends:

I have noticed lately that most of you are going through a hard time. I just want you to know that i will ALWAYS (and when i say always i mean forever and a day) be here for you. You all mean so much to me, and without all of you life wouldnt be worth living. I really hope that you understand that you can always come to me ( Read more... )

Im waiting... waiting for the day when i meet someone im looking for. A guy who will look into my eyes and make me melt inside... someone who knows what im thinking before i say it. Someone who i can share all of my sercrets, and they wouldnt laugh, but share them with me. A guy that doesnt make me feel stupid when i make a mistake. Someone who ( Read more... )

Today was battle of the bands... if you missed it, your a loser!! haha Just kidding, but seriously AR did so frikin awesome! even tho they had a few difficulties with the instruments they were the best band there!! unfortunatley the winners are based off of # of people there supporting that band and not for talent... so they didnt win (which sucks ( Read more... )

Welcome the whole new pain and take comfort in what you've become.
I waved as I passed myself along the way.
I have arrived so unashamed but my reflection no longer seems the same.
It seems much dimmer now... it seems so dim. Just stumble and fall into a world that's over crowded.
And you will find me. Won't recognize me; and I won't recognize myself.
I ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like something was missing... that something isnt right. You sit and think and try to figure out what is wrong... you feel sad, lonely, empty... even though everyone around you says they love and support you. You feel like no one really knows how you are feeling, and when they ask you cant explain it cuz you dont even know what ( Read more... )

"And so irritants, it is with this that i leave you. You are spared so that you can think of what it really is to live in a world that engages in a pain that there is no comfort. Here is your product, you have your lives to think of this..."  ~Johnny the Homecidal Maniac

Today was Easter... i guess it was okay. Easter used to be so much more ( Read more... )

And all i need to know... is that im something you'll be missing...

Its so beautiful out... its cloudy, dark, windy, and there is thunder. I dont know if it was someone in my recent past, or if it came to be on its own... but i have learned to love rain. Its so different than anything else that we experience. Its like the sky got tired of holding back and just let go. its so calming and the sounds puts me to sleep ( Read more... )