Its made so clear to me now, like a sky after the first spring rain. Like the water in my favorite stream, like... like the pain seeping from me. My skin torn, shredded and scared over and over again. I realize now what i've always known but never dared to speak. Although the thought i've toyed with, I might have said it in my sleep. Maybe once or ( Read more... )

What happens when u have problems with ur best friend and u have no other really good friends... or all the other really good friends either A)wouldnt understand, B)stopped being on ur side along time ago or C)u really could care less about their thoughts or feelings on the subject cuz they pissed u off long ago and that subject hads something to ( Read more... )

SO... lifes been ok i guess, i spent the weekend at my friends house and realized mine doesnt suck so hard, but i guess it still sucks tho. I came home really depressed like and it seems that that is my constant state of mind. Its annoying but whatever its part of a break up i guess. Idk really remember since this is the first time in about 3 or 4 ( Read more... )

This morning i woke up to that song... sign from god?

Idk if Jordan and I are ever gonna get back together... ever. I feel like he just wants to go on with his life and leave me out of it. Its depressing but Ben says otherwise. Like Jordan just needs his own time to figure everything in his life out. And cant take the extra stress of a girl friend ( Read more... )

Wanna talk about being showered with lies. Omg. I though that Jil was rite and Jordan truly, TRUELY loved me. I guess I was wrong last night Jil and I where talking to jordan and Jil was doing a survay and one of the questions was 'when was the last time you pictured you crush naked?' and hes like rite now and it was funny ya no then he said ( Read more... )

I had a boy friend, Jordan, but him and i are now on a "break". It makes sence though because we really do like each other and hes just really busy during the school year wat with drama and school and dance... yes dance, and so i shall wait until his life gets less stressful and packed with shit to do, idc if its until next summer... i really ( Read more... )