My heart is seriously breaking. I mean I love this woman with all of my heart and i only get a part of her. Then her ex calls and she starts thinking about her. i mean i just want her to love and want me like i do her!!!!

........its what I long for. real intimacy. i want her mind and body completely, but i dont have it, and as long as sex with other females is on her mind it looks like i wont get it. i thought i had found my 2 true love. but it looks like it wont last. issues with intimacy spill over into other issues and it just eats at the relationship until ( Read more... )

There's a void that I am unable to fill. Its like a black hole that has begun to suck everything in its path into its vast darkness. It will continue until there's emptiness. Efforts to stop it are futile. Love can never be complete and whole, because there will  always be something missing. 

I am sorry that I had to leave you. I want you to know that I loved you with all my heart and you will always be the sunshine of my life. I am sorry but I was an unfit and terrible mother and you deserve better. People don’t hesitate to remind me what a terrible job I am doing and you know what, they’re right. I just wish that I could have seen you ( Read more... )

I stare at my heart ( Read more... )

FUCK ALL!!!!!!!! MY HEART HAS JUS BEEN BROKEN. FUCK LOVE!!!!! FUCK IT 2 HELL!!!! I WILL NEVER LOVE AGAIN!!!! I JUS WONT!!! JOHN WILLIAM HIGGINS CAN GO HELL!

Hey its me again dimples. well im still feelin lonely, but at least I'm not pregnant, whew! That was a close one. I'm still lookin 4 sum1 2 love me. I mean I have John but i dont Have him have him. Its blowin me because all i want is to b with that boi. I love him 4 gooness sakes. SHYT!!!! idk man, i just dont kno!!!!

Man i went to see john last weekend! It was awesome. He got taller. He looked so good! We spent a LOT of time 2gether. we had 4 incredible sexual experiences. In the last one tho he accidentally busted inside of me and now i may be pregnant. who knows. but fo real idk, man i feel so lonely. i kno he SAYS that he loves me but i dont feel it. i feel ( Read more... )

Man I'm f***ing mad!!!!!!!! Lamar is pissin me off Imma try and cool off. I mean wuts a gurl gotta do to get a REAL man???

Man I still love my baby John, but I love Lamar as well. Lamar is actually here for me and makes that effort to be. I mean if John could be here as much as Lamar he prolly would be. I mean I cant fault him, but it still pisses me off. Lamar acts like he wants me but is afraid to commit. Im not sure Im kind of confused at the moment. I hope stuff ( Read more... )