Is it really so horrible a thing to love someone? If it's not, then why do I feel so indefinably repulsed every time I think about it? I suppose if the person involved doesn't share your sentiments, you start to feel like somehow you're in the wrong for ever feeling the way you do ( Read more... )

I read a really good book last week called God's Debris. It's by the same guy who draws the Dilbert comics(which never really struck me as very amusing), but the book was surprisingly provoking. It wasn't humor though, it was really more of a deep and philosophical insight into the universe. But that's just my opinion of it. You might hate it ( Read more... )

I wrote this a while back... I read over it again and kinda started to think about it for some odd reason.

I think that maybe the reason things happen that way is because... well, you know how sometimes when you concentrate on something too hard, like playing an instrument, or doing an assignment, or anything you focus too hard on, you always seem ( Read more... )

The Public VersionNow is probably the best time to write about all this because I'm somewhat delerious and not really thinking about anything too in depth at the moment. As a fair warning, this will probably be a very long, drawn out, and personal entry ( Read more... )

The whole concept of human thought processing is beyond me ( Read more... )

I was going through my old, crappy poetry the other night and it's sad, but I really haven't written anything since September. I think it's because I realized that my soul mate was completely inattainable and that I was being ridiculous.

Everything is driving me beyond insane lately. Mostly college and social issues. And the fact that I don't sleep anymore.

CollegeI don't know what I am doing. I don't want to stay here, but I don't know where I want to go or how I will afford it. The concept of money is so bizarre and wrong to me, yet I always wish I had it at my disposal. It ( Read more... )

Things never looked so bizarre but clear at the same time and I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing because I just hope I don't fuck up like I always do because I just have a certain knack for doing that and I don't know why or how this is happening but it is and something in my logos just can't seem to accept that as fact I guess because I'm so ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of being socially inept.

Why is it that the only people who seem to be able to find love are the people who could never really seem to grasp the full concept of the emotion and what it means to really, truly want to share your life with someone else and put their happiness before yours? I don't want to get into my personal definition of love, because that would take all ( Read more... )