and I don't have my dog.
my mom and gavin didn't pick me up.
and I still smoke. a lot.

Life is really long ( Read more... )

I kinda wish at this point that I was un happy or angry or sad ( Read more... )

I'm oin california ( Read more... )

I started my saga happily. I was controling. I was mean. I was the ultimate power. Or at least the nearest extent possible in middle school. I had a strong hold on the whole social scene for a few years. working myself into the perfect spaces. Always knowing what was up ( Read more... )

So, this whole yosemite thing. It's either not going to happen, or it will just sneek up on me, and on everyone. it would mean no country fair I think, but I don't even know if I got in anyway. I know I would really enjoy living on my own. Being on my own. Working with Charity. and with children. My mother was in her prime there, and I want to ( Read more... )

After months of avoiding any kind of serious conversations, they all come at once. I'm stuck between them, getting no answers, just more questions. All questions I have no answer for ( Read more... )

I will not let your false statements to interfere with my honesty.
Fuck you. I will not let myself get caught up in your trap. it's an endless process, but I'm fighting it.
No question.

I think I'm just waiting around for someone to wake me up. For most of the people I'm around, it's their parents that are pushing them forward, helping them, providing for them. I'm lacking that. She cares, that's not the issue, but she need just as much help as I do, if not more, and I'm not going to risk her mental health for anything right now. ( Read more... )

I slept in my own bed and slept with my dog every night. I had a decent job. I went to an amazing school. Lived with a family that cooks dinner everynight and always makes sure everything is "just fine ( Read more... )