I did not do well ( Read more... )

So the fact that drum major auditions are tomorrow just kind of hit me. With the force of an angry rhinoceros ( Read more... )

So there's really not a whole lot to say...I'm just updating cuz I haven't in a while and yeah.
I'm freaking ticked off about the stupid recital today. I mean, not even that I sucked, but that I might KEEP sucking if I can't get this throaty problematic thing under control. 
There's a lot of things I love and no one will ever know.
There's a lot of ( Read more... )

Life really scares me sometimes.
I get scared of myself. I get scared of what's going to happen in the future. 
Will my dreams come true? Will I be happy?

I'm just really scared.

Soul-searching. 
How do you define soul-searching?
They told us to do that at drum major clinics. I don't even know how to go about it...but I guess it's sort of the kind of thing where you can't really just pack your spiritual bags and go find yourself in the woods somewhere. I guess it sort of has to happen on its own. I just hope that happens ( Read more... )

So Veronica pretty much made my day.

It's taken me a little while to realize it. But I think I know now ( Read more... )

Sometimes, things like this happen. We don’t know why, and we don’t know how, and we don’t know how we fix it. But what we do know is that it’s ok, because no matter what happens, we’ve taken this experience and we’ve learned something. It might be insignificant now, but when you least expect it, you’re going to be so ( Read more... )

Beth is telling me to post a new entry from her house. So that's what I'm doing.

Umm so yeah I got medicine for the rumbly in my tumbly. And I feel okay now, which is always good. But I hate stupid AP homework. There's so much ahhhh!!! I am going to die!!! But that's ok because I won't really die. Maybe just go into cardiac arrest.

AHHH AND AUGUST ( Read more... )

It's almost honestly sort of comical, this is. 
I have never even heard of this disease. Let alone known of anyone who had it. But apparently it's common.
It's also chronic. I'm stuck with it forever. Which means no more CAFFEINE OR MILK PRODUCTS!!?!?!?! 
This sucks. Seriously. This really seriously sucks.

GAHHHHHHHHHHh