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[teddythompson]

My Christmas experience was, unfortunately, something I can't say I haven't experienced before. Things happened just the way I thought they would, and that is never a good thing. I, for the most part, think of the worst case scenario before I think of the better. This way you are always prepared for the bad, and are surprised and appreciative when

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[jeff_hill]

Teddy... I hope that all is going as well as it can. We have not talked in a while, but I have missed your company.

[teddythompson]

Things have been better. It just feels like tour.. roaming the streets aimlessly, looking for a familiar face, and feeling more alone every couple of minutes. I miss your company, and our LP talks on the long ride to each new city. Maybe I'll give you a call soon if you're interested.

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[jeff_hill]

it would be wonderful to talk to you again. i have been rather lonely myself even though i have been touring.. you know how it goes. :) things have been very lonely... it is sort of depressing. it would be nice to talk to you. :) hope to hear from you soon.

[matdevine]

aimlessness...not even a word but it works for me at the moment...is the fucking devil. If you had knocked on the door you would have been greeted with warm, open arms. I hope with your travels, you get the same thing.

[teddythompson]

If you had knocked on the door you would have been greeted with warm, open arms

Maybe you know that, but I don't, or didn't. I know I can trust Brian, and I know he would have held the door open for me without thinking twice about it. I just know that I wasn't ready to face him again, and he probably wasn't ready to face me. Especially so unexpectedly. While you think that would have happened, maybe it wouldn't have. Actually, it probably would not have. The situation is not as simple as it looks, meaning, a simple answer or solution like that would not make a simple outcome like you have laid out.

[amanda_latona]

I always love your posts.

[teddythompson]

Coming from you, I'm flattered. Thank you.

[juskasalminen]

I am sorry your Christmas was not better. You should have come to Finland with Ville. At least you are coming now, and I am happy to have you. The thought of you wandering around London all day by yourself makes me terribly sad. You need to be with people who care about you. I am not saying that Brian does not care about you; I know he does, but from what you said, the time is not right to see him.

I wish you all my best. I was going to say travel safely, but I know you are already on the plane right now.

[teddythompson]

Thank you for inviting me. I assure you me wandering around the streets of London without a clue as to what is going on is really nothing new. Made me reminisce about a lot of things from my past. Don't worry about my Christmas either, only another thing I grew accustom to many years back.

[juskasalminen]

Well, you are here now and that makes me happy.

[vanessa_amorosi]

I wanted to tell you something like 'I hope things will get better soon' but those words do not even nearly express all that went through my mind when I read this. So, I read it over and over again, but only became sader every time. Just know I'll think of you this New Years Eve... and I'll make sure to have lots of chocolate for you in case it doesn't.

[teddythompson]

Thank you, sweetheart. Have you been doing well? I assure you that I have plenty of chocolate already set aside for the occasion ;)