the day you took my breath, the fading breath of a candle blown

[teddythompson]

The feeling of a guitar beneath your fingertips is a feeling like no other. You can get almost everything out and take something else in. When I got back from Miami I went straight to my room at Gareth’s and played for as long as my fingers could stand it, or actually, until I fell asleep. I woke up the next morning, smoke a cigarette and then

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[amanda_marshall]

Wow...Teddy, I had no idea you ever felt that way. I always thought I annoyed the piss out of you. Unless...that's what you meant by little sister ;) But wait, I'm older than you...

Point is, if you not feeling the need to protect me anymore means that I see even less of you, then I don't like that. I really hated it when you kinda disappeared Teddy... I hope you decide to fully come back one day. And when you do, I'll be waiting to pounce.

[teddythompson]

You never annoyed me, darling.. and the fact that you are older than me means nothing. You act younger, anyway ;)

Have I been around a little more at least, lately? I'll try to make a full come back eventually and will be willing and ready for the pouncing!

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[amanda_marshall]

Well, I'll keep that in mind, thank you Teddy. I do not!! *sticks tongue out* oh...wait, maybe I do. But I'm all domesticated now ;)

You have been, and I love it...if you don't keep up with it, I'm hunting you down. You do not want a pregnant Manda chasing after you.

[teddythompson]

A pregnant Manda would still be able to kick my ass :\

[valo]

I don't think it's fair of you to say that I "hammered in the final nail to our coffin."
I don't think I deserve being treated like dirt. Like I'm such a devil again.

But true. Maybe it's good that you're angry with me, because anger is the logical way out. At least that's what they say.. first you're sad, then you get angry and then you get over it.

[teddythompson]

I don't think that was treating you like dirt at all. It's just the truth, or rather, how I feel. Don't you agree it holds some truth to it?

The 5 steps of Grief or Mourning? Something like that. Throw disbelief, denial, tears, hope, anger, anger, and rage in there, and we have a winner. You were something I didn't want to get over, but I learned my lesson.

[valo]

You're saying it yourself, it's what you feel. What I feel doesn't play into this equation of truth, quite obviously. But I guess that's part of "getting over it," as well.

[teddythompson]

What I feel
You actually feel?

You have been acted so wounded lately, but I don't see any of it. And don't give me that stupid, played out, cliché response of "Oh no I am an insensitive bastard, I never feel anything." Your sarcasm has lost its humour.

[juskasalminen]

Teddy, please take care of yourself. I still worry about you so. I am glad I got to see you in Miami, even if we did not speak very much.

...are you losing weight? You looked so thin.

[teddythompson]

I'm leaning to take better care of myself... and Gaz is helping as well.

It was nice to see you in Miami.. I wish we could have talked a little bit more. Maybe with time.

*shrugs* Food hasn't exactly been my best friend lately.

[juskasalminen]

You know that you can call me if you ever need to talk. I am probably one of the last people you want to speak with, yet everyone needs a listening ear.

[gareth_gates]

the guitar playing was beautiful. and it was good seeing you round the house again.

thank you for last night.

[teddythompson]

Maybe you'll come join me with your guitar for a session sometime?

It's good actually seeing you around the house some, as well. For all the time I have lived here, I've hardly seen you. It's been sad and somewhat lonely.

Thank you for everything, my darling.

[gareth_gates]

it's a date. get the four-track set up and we'll even record some things i've been working on. i feel so indie. :D

i should be around a lot more often now that management is cutting me off as far as letting me leave the country. fear i won't come back, mostly.

wanna go to dinner with me and Zoe tomorrow?

[miikka_kuisma]

You're so sad all the time. If you were in Finland, I'd give you your own hanky and invite you over to watch movies. Although Ossi, my bandmate, has been over a lot lately and he pisses on the floor.