*i think im guna see max tomarrow. eeh i dont know wether to be totally thrilled or kinda worried. i want to see him soo badly, but to me it seems a little bit counter productive, kinda what i was saying i shouldnt do for a while. . idk i really miss him and i know he misses me to. . . im just worried that i will break down when im with him and ( Read more... )

*i didnt sleep well last night, infact i havnt slept well since well since about 15 days ago. i keep waking up at all hours of the nigth, and sometimes i wake up crying and dont know why. i go in for my follow up from the re-evaluation i had for my adhd on the 15, and then if they think i "need" it they are going to medicate me again for that ( Read more... )

so . . . here i am again trying to put myself and my life into words. something about me has changed i dont know what and i dont know why. . . i feel very lost and empty, like i dont know what to do with myself or where i am and where im going. . . im utterly confused. i do believe that ive made one of the worst decisions in my life right now, ( Read more... )

* wish i knew what was wrong with my lately. . . it just seems that everything has gotten so much harder and isint nessacary ( Read more... )

AH SO BORED ( Read more... )

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ok so i just got off the phone with max. he told me a secret that i cant tell anyone. im not upset, and i dont think of him anyless or anymore than before. . . i love him very much, and i would never let something from his past bug me. I think im more worried for him than anything. he keeps saying hes a bad person, and hes not. . . he keeps ( Read more... )

Another fun survey because these things are awesome and i love reading peoples responses :0 ( Read more... )

**Directions- you start with 100% and for everything that you have done on the list, subtract 5% and repost this so that your friends can take the test ( Read more... )

snowday!!!! yay . . . . good night goign to go take a shower and go to bed . . . . night everyone have a good day tomarrow. . . . i love you max sleep well . . .
-madison