everythings fine. no worries. i was pretty excited and looked forward to digital media tonight, because no one wants a night class but i decided i would just this once and be happy about it. i learned things. i never knew how to use the patch tool or the healing brush. theyre pretty and work like magic and i like them. i then furthered knowledge at ( Read more... )

why is it so trivial? i must drive my point home but i cant right now because it would take like a day at least, maybe two. why cant people just understand that art shapes their lives, is everywhere, is important, (but at the same time you don't have to like it?)

isn't it strange that when we're telling people "just leave me alone, all i need is to be alone" you REALLY DO want someone there ( Read more... )

i leave for palos heights in a week and a day. i am very excited ( Read more... )

well, the good news is my family is almost all here.

the bad news is i get needy for friends after i spend three hours with them. crazy.

today i went to a funeral. it was for my uncle, i suppose you would say, i always called him that. he was my aunt marcia's second husband, but the only person i ever remembered her being married to as they had been married since i was three. he was pretty cool, i recall he was always full of spunk and on his game in his healthy years. it's weird ( Read more... )

well, i am retarded. i was just reading my past journals and thinking, by then i could've decided on a school to go to, but no, i haven't, and i don't want it to happen. i don't care. i really don't. i HATE my apathetic quality ( Read more... )

I HATE YOU WITH EVERYTHING.

you get excuses to feel certain ways.

if somebody pisses in your soup, you can in turn be pissed. it's allowed.

but what do you when YOU ARE BEING DANGLED BY A STRING? and you dont KNOW quite how to feel? it's the worst then.

i have a knot in my neck. its bad.

what the crap is going on

it's effin april

that's about it for now

efftards