man, life is so freakin crazy right now.
i have no idea what i'm doing once i graduate.
my mom says "you're in for a rude awakening" once i graduate she wants to kick me out.
i know my father would never let such a thing happen.
maybe it's best i go off on my own......

last night i hung out with heather, lori, and ameyally. 
i have gotten so ( Read more... )

 keaton pretty much broke up with me.

everything is back to shit.
i don't know about anything anymore. i was so sure i was being good for him.
we didn't even get a chance to actually be together since he's been in dallas.

sadly i know i won't stop likeing him for awhile. 
he's just one of those people i'll always have feelings for.

i just wanna pop a ( Read more... )

i totally wanna scream right now.
i heard something that pissed me off so fucking bad last night.

i don't know how to handle this information. 
i'm pretty grossed out to be honest.

maybe i deserve this. 
karma really is a bitch : [

Edit: i decided that i'll put this behind me. it's in the past. we all make mistakes and from what i heard this was a ( Read more... )

so i kinda got in trouble today. my dad found a few empty bottles of beer in my closet just sitting there on the shelf : x ( Read more... )

i have a boyfriend.
his name is keaton james obst : D

i'm going to miss him while he's gone.

i'm losing faith in everything.
i feel as if i have been living a lie.

i have so many emotions running through me right now.
just because you like somebody so much doesn't mean they'll like you back.
i told myself to be careful. i'm already setting myself up for heartbreak and there's nothing i can do about it anymore.

i shroomed for the first time ( Read more... )

I am in serious like and I need to be careful.


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laura lamb and i are friends again.
and i honestly am so fucking happy.
this shit went on for way to long.
i'm cooking spaghetti and garlic bread like old times tonight :D 

 does anybody want to go to fortworth with me for two days in december?
i don't want to ride a bus alone. it should be pretty neat, and it'd be nice to get outta the valley.
this is the closest my friend rachel will be coming to mcallen. i haven't seen her since 5th grade.
we use to be really close then her parents moved to lousianna, then indiana.
i ( Read more... )

compassion is a way of being

and your lucky numbers are
12,9,36,7,40,16

school isn't so bad anymore.
seeing keaton makes me feel funny.
i really miss him but there's nothing i can do about it.

i heard the worst rumor about me a little while ago.
it's so bad because it's not even close to being true.
i'm not even going to let it bother me.
i guess this is a ( Read more... )