my boobs grew.
i made out with a beautiful guy last night.
(it's funny how him and my pj bunny have the same name)
i'm finally going to go see a movie in the theater later today :D

i got pretty wasted last night. 
thank god the only people i was with was claire and germ.
i came home and started crying and my dad came into my room really concerned. 
i don't know why i was crying. i think it's this birth control. it fucks with my emotions.
i'm always pissed, frustrated, irritated, depressed, tired, and i always feel like i'm going ( Read more... )

 i got into options
thank god.

I went to my dad's rotary meeting this morning to suck up to mr. garcia (the man who is in charge of accepting or rejecting people's applications at options) there was a man there who had just gotten back from togo, africa. he was a doctor and had gone with baptist temple to try and treat some of there diseases and/or ( Read more... )

options interview on thursday at 9 am.
i really hope i get in. 
wish me luck

 i stayed in last night. i'm pretty proud of myself.
i haven't stayed in on a saturday in a really long time.

i went to bed at 8 and woke up at 6 this morning.
i still feel really crappy

i'm pretty sure i have strep, ha. i always get strep.
i'm glad my dad's finally coming home today.
i miss him so much!! and i'm really upset that he didn't call me every ( Read more... )

 just when i thought i was pretty much over him........he calls.
life really is a game. and i pretty much hate this game of life.

i messed up in so many ways last night.
i did a few bad things and i can't forgive myself.
i feel as if i'll never learn from my own mistakes.
i feel like a horrible person.

i called my dad a few minutes ago just to hear his ( Read more... )

so much for trying to stay away from drugs christan.

i think i'm stuck........i don't even know.
i want a way out, why can't i help myself?

 I need something or someone positive in my life.

i've had a good day and all but i've just been thinking about how i want to be a better person.
how i want to stop doing so many drugs. i know i do x every now and then and i tried acid recently 
i haven't done coke in a really long time, which is good but the fact is that i still do other drugs.
i know ( Read more... )

i tried a little bit of acid last night.
i just wanted to know what was so great about it.
i guess i didn't really take enough or something but i'm kinda glad i didn't.
i don't really enjoy "tripping"
i only felt it for like 20 seconds. i closed my eyes and i saw all these colors bleeding together or something then i was there in a rain coat jumping in ( Read more... )

 ouch!
I'm lucky i have a few nice friends who'll give me free pain killers.
i can't believe somebody would actually steal my hydrocodin. 
i was able to lay out for a few hours yesterday and lighten my hair, which was nice.

i went out last night and had such a great time! having that bottle helped, not being able to drink beer really sucked.
Dancing ( Read more... )