so fall came and went. im pretty different. im feeling my age, feeling the need to like decide on a not so slacker, not so illegal career soon. who knows. i still have the same boyfriend. things were rocky, really rocky but they're good now, and thats all i can ask for. i'm essentially addicted to cocaine, though i need to nip that in the butt. i ( Read more... )

im happy. happier than i've been in years. i have a job i like that pays enough of the bills. im doing well in school, ill be done soon. i have the best friends in the world, and i even have a wonderful boy. im watching a king of the hill marathon and feeling giddy. there, updated.

there has been a lot on my mind lately and i want to blog about it on myspace, simply because ill get more reaction because a hundred or so people read that. but i cant blog on myspace because ill get mroe reaction bcause a hundred or so people read that. i think im ready to move back to the city. i know i know, dont freak, ive grown a lot, worked ( Read more... )

theyre trying to bite our style trying to study our apporach.....ok it is apparently imposible to blog while listening to gwen. i have been watching sex n the city all day and rather than paint all my furniture or dye my hair i am blogging. mainly because i have no paint and no hair. for the first time in a long time i think i want the perfect boy ( Read more... )

this should be a happy journal. im due for one. i should go on abot how people i was only half befriending have completely done so. how my money situation fixed itself. and how derek is back. but of course it isnt ( Read more... )

i hate everything

for fucks sake

im not bi-polar, i dont get depressed i get angry

i need to seriously take up a sport or something

or become a drug addict

either way

drink
smoke
pop
snort
dance
drink
smoke
pop
snort
dance
drink
smoke
pop
snort
dance
drink
smoke
pop
snort
dance
drink
smoke
pop
snort
dance
drink
smoke
pop
snort
dance
drink
smoke
pop
snort
dance
drink
smoke
pop
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dance

die

There is no free wireless internet at the 24 hour laundry mat I just discovered. So I am writing this blog for wherever it ends up on Microsoft works, so its gonna fix a bunch of my intentional mistakes. So I apologize for my sudden use of grammar. I went out this Saturday, just like I wanted to, had a very fun time, though not as fun as I have had ( Read more... )

thats right, the shits. i spent most of today parading around with courtney in a perfectly assembled gold accented outift featuring hello kitty. the shirt was complimented several times and it was very convenient to have it's creator right there to get her well deserved credit. anyway, its a medium, and the shirt i wore yesterday is a medium, and ( Read more... )

im not quite sure why. maybe its that im in alton. maybe its that ive removed myself from the judgmental unwinnable homo game. maybe it's that im starting to feel like me again and not just brian the amazing surgery boy. but im nice and calm. i dont have a boy, and in all honesty i dont really have any prospects, but for some reason i dont mind. i ( Read more... )