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wrote this a little more than a year ago, yet it still feels fitting for how life has come so far ( Read more... )

anymore shit feels like a bad dream, i just wanna wake up and see that things are normal again, not the hell that my minds been the past few days. i hurt sooo bad, you say you need to get your life together, but the one whos been here thru your hells is the one you're pushing away, i dont understand, you even pulled the "you deserve better" line, ( Read more... )

thought i found a good thing this time, apparently it might disappear. im scared again, havent been for a while, but i feel like im fighting the inevitable, and now i understand what happened with my marriage a little better... i juts want to go back home to washington where things were easier again, i had my shit together out there, i thought ( Read more... )

why is it every year around this time it feels like my world is falling apart ( Read more... )

every time i see her it gets worse than the last
the longing
the sorrow
the realization that ill never have her again
i usually deal with it well
but it was hard to not break down today in front of her
i wish it had never happened...
im glad i made it out here, made some good friends and shit
but at my hearts cost
god im fucking lonely....

so i dont really hate my job, but it makes it REALLY hard not to when you have 5 stupid cunts who come in 30 minutes before close, run up a 120 dollar tab, split the checks and you only make 4 cents off the table...... i hope they get STD's

in a rather lost state of mind atm, trying to find myself for the nth time. found a girl that makes me feel something im not sure i ever felt before, timing always sucks when something good happens. gotta love the struggle, reminds me im alive, keeps me on my toes, hopin itll let up a little bit one day, but not counting on it.

smoking ( Read more... )

ok, so this past paycheck, i overdrafted beforehand, a total of 110 bucks, then, after i got my paycheck, which after the overdraft bills, came to about 300 bucks, i lost my debit card, and 100 bucks went missing out of my account. all this, after paying bills and a trip to ozzfest, and a carton of cigs, put me in the hole by about 14 bucks. this ( Read more... )