I haven't written a serious journal entry in a while, but there is a reason for that. Things in my working life caught up with me hard, and I've been stressed, a bit depressed, and suffering for it. I have been working on putting things right, but I'm only just starting to get there now.

Things with my wonderful ruine_ have been great though, and it's ( Read more... )

( Telynor interviewed me. -- 7th June 2003 )

As someone with a lot of experience of altered states of consciousness outside BDSM, I always reckoned I had a handle on subspace. Certainly, from the outside, everything I'd learned about how to support, handle and relate to someone in altered states of consciousness has been very useful in helping me learn how to be the sort of Dom I wanted to be ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night. This is an account of it, with a few minor corrections made to make it flow a little better and to protect the guilty who might otherwise appear in it ( Read more... )

As those who follow Ruine_'s log will have realised, Saturday was the first time for both of us playing in public, at a club. We wanted to before, but things weren't right - I was too recently injured, or the promised semi-private space at a club turned out to be very open, or we were just not in the right mood at the right time. But Saturday was a new ( Read more... )

Well, those who read my last weblog will recall a certain injury I incurred. Some time later, all is healing nicely. Much to relief of myself and Ruine_, of course ( Read more... )

(I have been working on another entry for a while, but events overtook me and I need to write this entry now.. I was going to say, if you're male, dont read this one, but then I realised I would have been a lot less scared if I'd known this sort of thing could happen. Which, is really why I'm writing it ( Read more... )

My first online experience of BDSM was on Isle of Shadows. It's a MUSH - basically, a purely text virtual world, in this case created to support a large online BDSM community. I ended up there because I wanted to talk to a friend who lived in California, and she was hanging out there, so it was a useful place for idle chat ( Read more... )

I briefly mentioned in my first entry that I'd thought for a long time that I would never collar anyone, but I find that I have. There are other things I want to write about, but I can't get past this until I've written more ( Read more... )

First entries seem to set the tone for what follows, and my intention is to let the tone wander wherever it will, so all I will write today is.. why I'm writing ( Read more... )