what the fuck am i doing.

what the fuck is wrong with me.

So something must be wrong if I'm writing an entry...
Well we had an online test in my education class, and i missed it...
and i dont know what happened, it just completely left my mind with everything else that i had to do it today.  and now im losing my mind.  and practically in tears.  I emailed the professor explaining the situation, but im not ( Read more... )

I just read a comment i posted a year ago..it was pretty much the same as the one i posted this year
1. Life is boring.
2. it consists of school and the play
3. school is hard.
4. plus, i didnt do my homework for tomorrow

I NEED SOME CHANGE IN MY LIFE....

Welcome to my second semester.  The first semester is over and so is Christmas break.  I thankfully got a 3.6 my first semester, but this semester I'm praying for a 3.0.  It's extremely hard.  I have 17 credits and two maths.  One being Calculus 2 and another being Foundations of Math, which is this crazy math class that seems as if it's going to ( Read more... )

It's been awhile...
Not that long I guess, but it has been awhile. 
Right now, I'm sitting in the library, just waiting for an intramural volleyball game at eight.  It gives me something to do now, I guess.  Since the play is over, I've had all this free time on my hand and most of it I don't know what to do with it.  Interesting...I know.
I actually ( Read more... )

I just don't know anymore, and it's as simple as that.
I think I'm just tired of almost  having it, and never actually having it...  I come so close, but I'm still so far away.  It's driving me mad.  And now...it's gonna just start all over again.  Just like usual.  When am I going to be able to get what I want...or who I want for that matter.  And ( Read more... )

My awesome director canceled practice on Friday.   So I can come home now!!!! My dad is picking me up probably around four-ish, so I might be a little late for the game, but I'll be there!!   YES!!!
I get to come home this weekend.
I'm so excited.
You have no idea!
Now I got Wednesday to deal with.  It's definitely the worst day of the week.  Five ( Read more... )

Hey.
All right, yes, there is a problem that is really pissing me off right now.  And I think it's more serious than it seems to others.  Well, the bottom line is that I really want to go home this weekend.  I haven't been home since Labor Day, and I think I might lose my mind if I have to stay in this dorm for one more weekend in a row.
Due to this ( Read more... )

Tonight is one of those nights where I really wish I had someone to talk to...
Someone to love.
Someone to say it'll be all right because they will always love me.
 

Well...
College is here.
And it's funny because I've been waiting for this moment for so long. 
When you're in elementary, you can't wait to get to the high school.  And when you're in high school you can't wait until you get to college.  And when you're in college you can't wait to HAVE A LIFE.  
I currently have no life on campus.  I don't know if ( Read more... )