keep my head above the water. Bring it.

I did get lost but today I was awake to see the dawn. I don't know how to think and sometimes I think I'm breaking down. This must mean I'm not busy enough. My coffee got cold. I don't want to think that this is how it has to be. This hurts.

Even though I try to. I am who I am and I should accept it by now. I'm a drifter. And it doesn't seem to matter how many letters I send. I fail and I ain't goin' nowhere.

Maybe it's okay that I don't have life figured out yet. I'm on my way and I've got a good start. I'm more privileged than most in the world and I can't help but want more. I got what I wanted. But now I want more. I keep trying to be better ( Read more... )

This is the start of finals week. I isolated myself. It's been good for me, in a way. I've been turning my phone off and tuning out everyone so I can focus on my schooling. But it makes me lonely and out-of-touch with the world ( Read more... )

If you walk away I walk away ( Read more... )

don't you know that I could have died? I should have died.

And I've been wasting my time on feeling hurt and sorry for myself. Life is good. I'm walking away without a care in the world. Fuck it. I can feel that pounding in my head. I can feel this rhythm and even go faster if I'd like. I'm going to out-run the world tonight ( Read more... )

I learned to use a dishwasher today.

Weird.

when the rest of my life is so hard?