So I'm probably in the middle of the most sadest point in my life as of yet. Derek is everything I need right now to make everything better, but can I have him? No. Everything doesn't have to be complicated you know? Some things are just right in front of you, you just need to let yourself realize it. Soon you will know what to do. I guess I'll ( Read more... )

Derek will be home soon. We'll meet up with Matt and Melissa, maybe Heather today. We'll search around for money, maybe sell a few things, go buy some pot, drive around, smoke, listen to music, stop by my house, smoke some more, go to Matt's basement, smoke, go to Tammys screw around there for a while, and then just keep doing this until it all ( Read more... )

Hey. Still alive.

Nothing much. Working and sleeping.

I still don't know what to get Derek for Christmas.

I got a job. It's the over night shift at Target and I get paid $9.75 and hour. I had a three hour orientation last night and all the sudden my sixth grade teacher Mrs. Brodka walks in who just happens to have also applied at Target. Pretty weird. I felt bad for her ( Read more... )

Well my brother lost 80 pounds. I hadn't seen him in over a month since he went away and I saw him yesterday. It's almost overwhelming how different he looks. He bought Derek a leather jacket and told him we should get married. I don't think he liked that second part ( Read more... )

You know. Being this age is kind of confusing. I think being in a relationship through the "College Transition," is one of the most diffucult things to be done. Just when I think I have everything figured out...the next day I feel completely different and I end up not knowing what to do...so then I do the wrong thing ( Read more... )

I got bored waiting so I did this thing ( Read more... )

And when they come they hug and hold you
Kiss your cheek and touch your hand
Remind you
Remind you
Remind you...

I wish I just ALWAYS made the right decisions. That would make everything so much easier. Although I guess life wouldn't be much fun. But it also wouldn't be such a pain in the ass either.

I wish I could just start over.

Thought I would try this...

if you read this,
even if we do not speak often,
comment with one memory of me.
it can be anything you want,
good or bad.
just as long as it happened.
then post this on your livejournal.
see what other people remember about you...