Time has been going by too fast....when I get on here, I ask myself why I stopped. For me this is a second journal to where I can understand myself a little better. Sometimes I feel like no one can understand me at al but then again that's selfish of me. I can't help it. I love my significant other but lots of times I feel like I'm getting pushed ( Read more... )

I haven't written in this thing in such a while now. I need to get on here more.
Today isn't such a great day. My lunch break is about to end and I have to go back to a job that I really do not like. I really don't want to do this the rest of my life but what choice do I have right? That's how this country works. Work for the man in order to live. ( Read more... )

Well, things don't seem to be going so good at the moment. I'm falling apart. I have no job, no future and nothing at all. Losing it and losing my humanity. Each day, it gets worse and I can't do much about it. I snap way too easily. My mother doesn't make it any better....she antagonizes me and gets in my face....I try to keep calm...but I can't. ( Read more... )

I had an old friend of mine pass away this year of January. He had Leukemia and was fighting it for almost a year. I had known him since the 6th grade and we knew each other well enough to know what kind of person we both were... The last time I saw him was almost exactly a year ago, and he was buying tickets to one of my shows at the Fitzgeralds ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I have written in this. I don't even consider to write in my notebook journal anymore. Maybe because I've ripped out most of the pages, out of anger. It's hard to think straight when you're miserably hot...when your girlfriend doesn't understand the way you think...when you're constantly getting pissed over every little ( Read more... )

I haven't wrote in a while, so I thought I would give it a shot. Well this Thanksgiving was a failure....like the last one....it wasn't so bad I suppose. Only the fact that mom decided to get ridiculously drunk and be very annoying. Nothing ever changes. But other than that, it went well. Ate a lot of food, conversed, bellies full. I feel a lot ( Read more... )

I feel a whole lot better now.. Yesterday I was having some mood swings and getting a little too emotional, but when I walked the trail with my mom this morning...it helped me clear my head a bit and I felt like I could breathe more. The day was was beautiful and astonishing :)there are times when I wish I could lucid dream forever...things would ( Read more... )

For the past two days now, the weather has been very astonishing. I can finally breathe that nice, cool distinctive fresh air, breezing across my face and through my long curly hair ( Read more... )

At kenny's house and away from my family...running away like always....I always run away like a fucking coward and a lone wolf.....I can't control myself when confrontations happen at the household....when I try to talk things out and point out little faults..bad things happen...I get angry too fast and blow up then leave the house, with my mom ( Read more... )

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